The Wildest Summer

I wish you'd hold onto me
The way clouds hang onto sky

I wish you kept me closer
I wish you would have tried

But time has crept by
Without a word, it's been goodbye

And people forget
That silence cuts deep

Did you forget?
I wish I could sleep.

Waiting never gets anyone by
Pain is just a wave to ride

And I don't know what your thinking
But dont worry about hurting me
With words
You already broke me
With silence.

To Keep The Peace

Because when you close your eyes
And feel your heart.

When you lay in sun,
And melt apart.

When you open up,
So you can bleed.

When you cry a little,
Just to breathe.

When you take look,
Inside you head.

And meditate yourself to bed,
You will see clear again.

When your eyes have cluttered,
From all the pain.

And your feelings have shut down
Because you're no longer sane.

You will sit and breathe,
Where your heart is.

You will fly and grow,
In a place that no one knows.

Too little Too late

You disappeared
Into another plane.

Not the one that's here,
I lost it all
And stuck with fear.

I thought I lost you too
Without a response to hold onto.

And now you knock
And now I'm missed.

I waited too long
And hurt deep.

And sorry means nothing now
Silence is louder than words.

You can't shake this heart anymore
Your just the past now
Behind another closed door.

I wish I couldn't say I still miss you

The Planet in Your Head

Your love is hopeless,
This world is loneliness,
The ocean is vastness.
Your eyes see sadness.

Were you lost and broken?
Are you hiding and fading?
Do you need a hand or just a place
For you to land..?

I swore you were frozen
Melted and closing.

But the cosmos are open.
Where you breathe, sit, hoping.

Is everything a mistake?
Or just a lesson.
Everything ends so a new place can begin.

Your anxiety is restlessness,
Your nervous and destructive.
But this place won't collapse on you.

Just a collision and it all formed
Not alone, just wandering home.

Someday, somewhere,
Your dreams are just the visions of it all. Your pillow to comfort those tears.

And the alarm sounds but it's the same day all over again.
We break it all and sweep it up,
But there's always remains left soiled in the ground.
And they pull you back.
And your holding too many hands.

Your own trap
Another lap
And I can see your worth
It is not nothing.
You are everything.
This is everything.
And you are in it.

Hello.

Breaking Silence

Even the sun looks brighter
Even the world looks wider
Your standing right next to me but were miles apart
Concrete is hard to break
And I could feel
You at a distance
Don't stand too close
I still won't look away
Even if you never
Look back

Fell From The Sky

The careless are contagious.
Have you spun and watched the stars?
You turn and land, collapse with a rush.

I need a reminder,
Don't give yourself away.
It hurts too much
When all you want is to be loved.
Maybe I don't love myself.
But I still have the world to offer.

Forget the rage, embrace the pain.
And close your heart if ever your numb.

Losing feeling is like losing blood
Slowly you'll be drained, and destructed.

This is not a book I'm trying to write
There is no story to tell.

But, I think words are all I have to offer. Even if you don't understand them. Half the time I don't.

And I don't need you to either.
As long as you accept it.

Matches We Burn

I miss the blue in your eyes
The way you'd try to compromise
The tone in your voice,
The touch of your skin.

The messages you'd send.

All the lies you spilled.
All the vibrations I felt.
I thought it could be real.
I thought I could finally feel.

Now I lay beneath darkness with rain
Now I lay and dream without trying to be sane.

You know I'm not okay now
You found a place to break in and steal.

It only took a plane and a long awaited kiss.

Now I hold onto all I want and miss.
Miss a love that doesn't exist.

The soul, the chemicals that skip a beat.
Out of balance, take a seat.
So I can shout the pain at you
So I can cry the ache out too.

Just need you in the same room
It's burning down, flamed too soon.

Goodbyes With Angels

There are people who leave your life and your left with filled with a light they brought you. There are people who leave and your left with an emptiness that scorns you.

You were a diamond in a dessert all the same. Reminded me of peace as if it exists between picture frames.

Don't forget your magic, bring it everywhere. I can only thank you for your sunlight when I needed it to be shared.

What is it to be alone, memories are not erased. I have every moment in my head. Words cannot go left unsaid.

I have no plan or time limit. I float atop this mountain. And sit through all the rain. Happiness will come she says. Don't be afraid to love again.

Harm

My skin is marked
With the blade
Of yesterday.
And you can't send me a life jacket or pull me up.

You can't ask me to swim,
Or cling to the rope on your ship.
I wait until my body tires,
So I can drown.

The blood dries up and scabs,
Just a temporary hurt I need to feel.
Just a permanent dull ache inside,
To know what's real.

And when the lines on my arm disappear, I do too.
Pick up the weapon for a pain I once knew.

I wave,
But they don't see
What's happening
Beneath the sea.

The Pendant

It's like this never happened
Just a fog that dissolved
Just the dirt under the ground
Absorbed all the water
And dried out
Your a spirit that's left the room
A phone call that's disconnected
A province away
An earthquake that was yesterday
I've opened up a gate in the cave
For flowers to bloom
A safe escape
And your loneliness will
Eat you away
Darkness where light won't find a way
And I won't ever see you again
And I won't ever leave you again
The feel of your hand on mine
Has evaporated
Just a memory
Driven through your dust
Just a soundtrack that played lust
I sit and watch the sun rise now
A place you don't belong
You'll never reach my strings again
I've detached and flown away

Sleepless

Took my time
And ran with it
I sit now it's too hard to stand
A game all to familiar
Yet somehow you won
And I'm not an object
To be thrown away
Somewhere there's light
Someday you'll be okay
Don't convince yourself you're scared
The voice in your head is guidance
This time I'll run without stopping
No boundaries left
No entries left unlocked
I'll crawl into my own escape
I'll fly into a lonely place
Cause lies have turned me
Ice cold
Secrets held that no one knows
You stole my trust and dissipated
No longer existent
All false words, persistent
Time to build a roof and cave
No more hope for the strong and brave