Take Me

I'm sorry I pulled away.
I'm sorry I let you down.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to leave you.

I ran. I feared. I lost.

I'm sorry I hid.
I'm sorry I got away.

I didn't realize what I was leaving behind.
What could grow.

I forgot how to feel.
I have blocked every feeling I am capable of feeling.

I have closed completely.
I need to be broken, crashed, picked up and thrown on the ground,
Into a million pieces.

I need to bleed.
I need to see.
Breathe.

Because I cant feel a thing.
I'm motionless, and ending.

I need you to pull me, and take me away with you.