Restless For the Waiters

Everyday you sit
At your desk.

Check this page.

Invade this parade.

Because maybe if we could join each other.
No one would know what it feels like to be alone...

Sometimes I am willing to give that up.
But it's the only thing I have that is permanent.

Isolated in this seclusion,

No one can make this half a whole.

In Her Nature

These walls I stare at.
Impossible to see past, to see through.

In this silent, empty room.

Nothing but a window,
A world all too familiar to look out to.

If I must bleed to know what is on the other side.
Cut me open.

Let's run dry.

Submerged in obsession of my own developing thoughts.

'Cause this pen,
Is all I allow myself to have.

The Night of A New Year

I don't know what happened,
Or if it meant anything.

If it will..

But through the night my hand was held.
You turned to me, we walked through darkness
Unaware.

I have fear and nostalgia, and I let both of them stop me.
I am uncertain. I don't know what I want.

Even if you do, you can't help me.
How do you open yourself up to something
When everything inside you has run dry?
Everything inside has become empty.

I try to remind myself to smile,
But I have no memory of what I am fighting against anymore.

Without A Heart

I thought I lost, and then I remembered, you did.

I held myself up, I held myself back. I could have given myself away, I could have let myself be as worthless as you made me feel. I stayed strong, you couldn't break through. And you believed that you could. How can you expect to take everything away from a person when you have absolutely nothing to give.

You don't have the ability to steal anybody's heart, because in the end it will be yours that breaks.

Take a look at the world and see how full it is, and just how empty you are. You will never measure up to any amount of love because you were born without a heart.

Gone

You let the water fill your lungs,
You let yourself sink,
down, down, down.

Until all your emptiness
Had been consumed
By water.



Only things is,

Now your gone.