Obsolete and Incomplete

Invisible aura

In your presence.

Always giving, never the receiver.

Betrayed, deceived. 

You misunderstood the equation presented.

I unfolded a truth requiring difficulty to admit.

The least you could do, is close your arms around mine.

And breathe. Breathe me in.

Invisible.

Alright with that now.

Used to being the lingering ghost,

And I thank you for forcing me out your door.

(Sarcasm makes a better lover.)

Choke

Worthlessness chokes it's hands around my throat.
And I'm gasping for air that is out of my reach.

Tears exploding, face becoming damp.
Hyperventilating the pain stabbing at my heart.

Slaughtering the feelings I can't explain.

Excruciating.
And you keep turning away from me.
Assuming the worst of me,
Don't ask what's wrong.
Just keep throwing your weapons at me.

And I continue to drown.
Invisible.

Falling and waiting to fly.
But I never hit the bottom.
I'm waiting to break.

Leave this world.
This world doesn't want me.

Pain, hurt, searing within me.
I battle this fight everyday,
And I fail, and I bleed.

My screams cannot be heard.
Inside I suffocate.

Hanging on by a thread. And I only want to let go.
Land upon a different star.
This one is dying,
This one is burning.

I want to learn to shine.
I want to feel light.

I want to be okay.
And I don't know how much longer I'm willing to wait..

Never Seen

You never turned back around.
To look for me.
Never called my name again.

Never asked if I were okay.

But you still echo in my head.
And there is nothing but silence you left between.

It hurts more seeing that I was never seen
At all.