the truth about freedom

The space between inhale and exhale

the space between stars

fill up with air, and collapse into dust

I walk a sunlit path and breathe with the trees

I look out the window and see the world as an illusion

dreamer dreaming on the inside, she shifts like the wind

but its all fog outside

layered with mist and murky 

evolving in a deceiving world

she walks to the edge of the earth

and jumps 

the universe catches her below

soaked in the stars and moon dust

moving with the celestial mystery of the unknown

more real than the world thats conformed

more free than the ones locked in chains

expand your wings to float in light

come alive, come alive

the heaven you dream of is yours.

and the world will keep spinning

losing its shape, losing its state.

I swim in the depths of imagination 

I paint together and blend the magic of creativity

in my heart space, find your heart space

fearless and rooted

ill fly by, to remind you of the magic within the sky

possibilities that swirl around but you’re blind to let go and surrender 

surrender your mind, surrender the fight

you battle yourself, so you can’t take flight

just one more breath and you’ll be free

to the air that holds space within the trees

to the waves that crash with the ocean breeze

and when you wake up

dont forget to shine

a new world that awaits

and exists without time.

***

A Higher Consciousness

As I inhaled, the air swam into my lungs filling the spaces beside my heart. It made me feel lighter, almost free. Like petals falling off of a flower, letting go of the bud they once held onto.

I realized there are two worlds out here. The one we look at, eyes wide open. But there is a whole underground tunnel when you close your eyes. Inside your mind. It will guide you to places where colors can fly, where sky hangs in shades of pink, and people are not people. But rather floating, glittering miracles sitting in a light you can't find in reality. To get here you must be connected. You must believe. There is a gateway from the crown-at the top- of your head which extends into the Universe. Grab my hand, I'll take you.

This is no Peter Pan story, where a boy filled with dreams will come through your window and take you to Neverland. But I imagine that story could have came from the same place I'm talking about. Maybe I should ask the author.

A Lotus Rises

The fatigue
Is ever lasting.
I thought the same about darkness,
Until then came light.

I have placed myself
Along elements
Earth, air, water, fire.
Back to the roots,
Feel grounded.
Back to the connection
Feel one. All is one.

And when your heart is racing
Just close your eyes and send
A trusting thought
Into the universe.

Light a candle and swim,
Keep your gaze on the flame.

It dances and wakes up the dark,
Comforts, and warms your aching bones.
Sit and stay a while,
Breathe and kiss your solid wounds.

Adrenaline Rush

The world collapsed in space.
Became it's own Universe.

We travel endlessly in spiralling galaxies.
I believe we need to find Love.

I believe we need to fight.

Like fire to wood, be more than flame to dust.

Expand, without extinguishing.

Share your hand, share your heart.

Feel your pulse.
Breathe.
Deep.

The Angels Are Crying

Every feeling crossed out
Lashed against your skin.

Marked, red and bruised.
My ghosts you've tried to see through.

But I've hidden under covers,
Where no oxygen is left to breathe.
Tripping through a tunnel,
Damp and out of ease.

I'm sorry if you're sorry,
But I don't need a reason to cry.
I'm sorry if you love me,
And answers are impossible for you to give away...

"Be with me," is all I begged,
Your silence in response drained my blood.

Skipping Beats

I am everywhere.
I am pieces.
I am air.
I am dark and light.
I am sun and sky.
I am wind and warmth.

My heart beats, my lungs expand.

My mind changes everything, everyday.
Sometimes I forget who and where I am.
Other days I know exactly what this is.
Exactly what I want.

But today I woke up to feel like I am disappearing.
Losing. Giving up hope.
Falling.

Waiting.
To hit the bottom, and crash.

Crash into more pieces,
multiples of millions.

Of Earth and sand and traveling particles.
To reach space, and stars and all countries of the world.

Because these places are lacking me, and I am lacking them.
Lacking love, and discovery and life in other universes.

I'm trying to hold on,
But I feel like I am being pulled into another place,
On the other side.

Somewhere else wants or needs me,
And I don't want to be here anymore.

I just want to feel alive,
Feel okay.

Feel whatever it is I can't anymore.

I think that I've lost my heart.
I think my chest is filled with sadness,
And now all that I am... is incapable of breathing.