We Left The Wind

What would I give
To have your kiss?

What I would give
To see the world.

What would you give,
To see me again?

What you would give,
To have nothing.

Is that not what you made me?
I was everything.
You did not see.

Through The Path

You dropped me at the end of your rope,
I no longer know how to climb.

Landed among a broken comet, a dying garden.
The threads will break me down,
No one to sew them together.

Life and it's wind constantly exhaling,
Nature forgets to take a breath in.

Thrown out, rained out, washed up.
And we come here just to leave,
With wears of pain conceived.

Teach me to fly,
To stop me from falls.

White clouds blinding me,
No sleep decaying me.

I wonder if everything we wonder, could be real.
Love left us all a long time ago,
I'm not sure it can be found.

Leashes to be established.
Become my own security,
My own brace.

Attempting existence underground,
I can no longer dream against planets out of reach.

The dark can absorb my remains,
Break down, decompose.

Permanent footsteps imprinted on pavement,
Living above my caved, sacred basement.

This is my leave from you, world.


Sincerely,
Resisting your arrest.

Lilium In Lithium

It wrestles, twists.
In spite of it's growth.
From the sprout of it's seed.

Forgetting all it needs.

Rejecting water ricocheting off it's own petals.

Pink, and soft.
White and light.

Streaming through the darkest of earth,
Roots extending below surface.

Wanting to be plucked, and gone.

Lilly droops instead, freckled on the inside, and rare.
Nature to sit by and stare.

But she keeps her head down.
Hoping the world to be erased from her memory.

And wake up in a field of seeded, seamed flowered dreams.
Drying, to a crisp. Quenching. Fighting. Dying, to be pulled out of this ground.
Taken away.

Nothing left but the devoured, shrivelled evidence of existence.

Nights in Mystic Reverie

The waves have gotten far now.
Have they forgotten the shore?
I spent my nights submerged in lake
My heart not wanting more.

A time to feel the breeze
and let it take my thoughts from me.
A time to look up, experiencing
The astronomy that is holding me.

It was a kiss that was stolen,
A beat that ran away.

The waves have gotten far now.
Please don't get too carried away.

Shell

I really lost my heart.
And this time I can't find it.
I call for it,
I look for it.
It is nowhere.
All that leads me, is my mind.
All I hear is my mind,
So I listen.

It could be up to me to change.
But instead, I sit here waiting..
Because it always feels like there is something that is going to happen.
Something, an awakening, anything.
Nothing ever happens. And the waiting will not. ever. stop.
Right?

So do I force myself up out the door and try to find sanity
within the crowds and routine lived by others?
Creating the same thing for myself...?

I am looking for my heart,
because I have blocked off everything I can feel.

And I can't feel.
So, I don't know
What I care about.

I try to dig that knife into my skin,
Into my wrists.
Just so that I can feel SOMETHING.

And I wake up to examine the marks I left.
I need to know that I am real. I need to feel it.
But instead.
I am just dead.
I am just...empty.

Just a shell.

Abandonment

My heart clings, you leave.
It stings.

You go away.
You never come back.
We never speak again.

My heart is left with a permanent mark.
A reminder to not get close to people.

I could never understand why goodbye's have been so difficult for me.
But I realize now. Im alone.

The few I have let in, the few I were close with that meant everything to me, disappeared.
I lose faith.
And start to believe that I am meant to be alone.

The guards grow, I will never escape this cave I've surrounded myself with.

But everyone else will...

The Rush That Pulls You Down

And if you want to leave me
Leave now.

And if you try to hurt me,
Hurt me now.

But I have guards encircling me before I hit the ground.

And if you want to run,
You better start now.

This is as alive as you're going to get.
With every breath, withdraw what needs to be gone.

You aren't lost,
You just don't see the way out.

Hey You

I'm trying to find you,
I'm trying to know
Who you are.

I wish I knew if you felt the same.
You talk to me, and you heal me.

Everything you say, hits a trigger.

And I wonder if it could mean anything.

I wonder how you wonder.
I wonder how you think, how you feel, how you hurt.

Do we think the same?
Do we feel the same?

Do I help you, how you help me?

Either way, it doesn't matter because you're leaving..

Just like everyone else, you will be gone
You will be vanished.

I don't know how I'll feel,
But I know I'll be missing you.

Gone

You let the water fill your lungs,
You let yourself sink,
down, down, down.

Until all your emptiness
Had been consumed
By water.



Only things is,

Now your gone.