Phalaenopsis

Plant a golden seed,

And the universe will find it, shape it.

It will glow and liquify and taste as sweet as honey.

Attraction beating at it's centre, roots begin to form.

Watching from your window, you'll see sprouts of love 

Tearing up the ground.

Breaking through the surface.

And your conservation will pull such life toward the sky.

Plant a golden seed, and check the label:

This will give you all you need.

Love extracting, like water being lifted from a well.

Anger burned away, in a fire that killed the hell.

Ancient Loneliness

Everything you take is like a photograph.

Now I have nothing left.

No more angles, no more stories, no more positions or movement.

I am solid. A staue gone unidolized in a crowd at a museum.

They forgot what I am made of,

They forgot my name.

Everything captured, has not been emptied. 

A build up of raging cells in a volcano stir and erupt in my brain.

And when I dream, I can't wake up.

I have to face the monsters I've been shielding all day long.

The Breathing Space

I awaited to take off in the rocket I built,
The moment I hit the release button
It broke down.

Dreams of ascending to the sky
I will find a way to fly.

Out of red moon poisoned light,
The only security is dark, bitter night.

Where people talk in sleep,
Their voices escape to stars.

Shallow becoming deep,
The only movement from destructive cars.

All repressive desires release in subconscious haze,
Everything expires in rotted extended days.

And patience has lost it's value, all that is left is rage.
Anger brought to brew, dagger to rib cage.

And all the black has taken my vision.
And all the songs have caused indecision.

Each and every rocket to sit in a solid place,
Only waiting for the launch, to reach into outer space.

Reaping Cottoned Dreams

For the shot, for the kiss.
Perfection drowned in running this.

A clinic of ventricles beating through your heart,
Disrupted the silence, at a loss to find the start.

Backed up a fight,
Ignored choosing the right.

And the thoughts whisper at you,
Yelling at you in dreams.

Bursting inside,
Swelling seams, providing streams.

And all your skins been graded, fire burning pain away.
Ashes to ashes, we become.
Together - we're all. But lonely is the sum.

Of it all, in it all. Emotions cutting knots on chastised rope.
Jump from the top while your fears chase you to the ground,
Knowing it's the last chance, eyes closed. Death bound.

Tonight You Said Goodbye

I tore myself open for you,
You crawled right in.

No caution. No whispers.
Warning signs ignored.

Nausea now taking up my organs,
Heaving the regret you gave me.
The regret I let happen, all alone.

This sickness will eat me alive now,
I bid you leave.

Leave me.
It's easier to imagine you never existed.
A story I just read in a book.
I will bury it in the deepest, darkest shelf.

Never return to a vanishing soul,
That will not fight
For the heart you have already given.

Space

Im so tired,
So tired of this wall

Im so tired
So tired I can't see at all

Broken, chipping
Dreams to seep

Ash remains from fire,
Flames arise in hell

Who wants to be, anyone but me?
Fuck this mind that can't leave behind
An empty void, black and bleeding
Black and bleeding, a fall that is deceiving..

Fight the breath you've choked on
Swallow salt in ocean
When blind, unkind
You know that all these hearts will die.

Patience you say to me, your friend
No time for that when time is an enemy
That beats us all, to rage and call
To age and dust back our living
Through the potent cycle, turn remains of earth
We're done.

Innocence is declining, hollow world defining
All dreadful things, emerge and breeze unfulfilling.

Not in the head- drowned in distilling contamination
Condemns my unpolished soul, punished impulse strangling
A hope uprooted and destructed

Save your voice, kill the sun
Burning, brightness is the gun

Humanity slipping,
Civilization is awakening foreign, evil.

I need a galaxy, opening.
Take me, whole.
I will pulse through your radiation of light.

A beg screams, "Turn me into constellations." 

Soul Search

And every cut you scar me with,
Just numbs me to the core.

Everything like shattered glass, I've felt it all before.
And if you try to take my hand,
Just watch for it to break.

'Cause everything you steal from me,
I can't continue to replace.

I'll stay lost behind these walls,
You won't see me if I fall.

The time keeps moving, Im feeling small.

Try to take me away.
Try and steal, but i'm afraid.
You have no words left to say.

You can't take what you break.
You can't take what you took.

Like a heart
continues to beat.
Like the soul in my body, two things that continue to meet.

And if I could disappear,
I would want to be some place so far away from here.
So far away from here.

Don't try to look in my eyes.
Don't try to wipe back my tears.

This isn't your place.
You got no right to leave me,
With fear.

So what did you do to me?
Why did you leave me here?

Hell

You brought a storm,
When I had found my happiness.

You took it away from me,
you made me miserable.

You left me constantly waiting and disappointed.
And you said the words "I love you."
But in the end they weren't what you meant.

You took away my sun,
You stole it.

You made me feel worthless.
You threw me away.

And now I'm lost.
I'm fucking lost.

I have built up so much hate.
I don't know how to forgive you.
But I know it's what I need to do to let go.

I can't right now because I saw all the warning signs,
and I chose to ignore them.

You left me disappointed not only in you, but myself.
I hate you. And  I wish I could yell those words at you.

You don't deserve anything you wish for.
You only deserve misery. And hell.

I hope you fucking go to hell.

Replusive

I can't stand

Who you try to be

And who you think you are.

I can't stand how people believe

The act you put on,

The lies you hand out.

You use their hearts,

and then toss them out.

Pleasure is all that you want,

All that you need.

And you don't deserve to have it.

This is why you never got it from me.

I hope you drown in misery.