Through The Path

You dropped me at the end of your rope,
I no longer know how to climb.

Landed among a broken comet, a dying garden.
The threads will break me down,
No one to sew them together.

Life and it's wind constantly exhaling,
Nature forgets to take a breath in.

Thrown out, rained out, washed up.
And we come here just to leave,
With wears of pain conceived.

Teach me to fly,
To stop me from falls.

White clouds blinding me,
No sleep decaying me.

I wonder if everything we wonder, could be real.
Love left us all a long time ago,
I'm not sure it can be found.

Leashes to be established.
Become my own security,
My own brace.

Attempting existence underground,
I can no longer dream against planets out of reach.

The dark can absorb my remains,
Break down, decompose.

Permanent footsteps imprinted on pavement,
Living above my caved, sacred basement.

This is my leave from you, world.


Sincerely,
Resisting your arrest.

Hospice of Archaism

A script misunderstood,
Scraping at the pain you cannot erase.

The paint you chose is prevented to chip.
Hush your voice, and purple scarred lip.

I tied a rope to each our hands
A desire you once did not understand.

It's getting cold when you're not around.
And death screams when it haunts me with sound.

I stole a branch no longer alive,
In the treetops it's easier to leap than dive.

And no other will find us here,
In our own polluted atmosphere.

Hour Glass Life

Over there, you see.
The reflection in the mirror.
Only glass, looking back.

What is on the other side,
Of the breath I hear you breathe.

When they shut the door, I broke.

When we drove away, paralyzed.

The scratched disk skips and plays on repeat.

Flash, spark, rewind.

The white sinks in the carpet now, no substance left.
Just dry.

Bourn In Thick Coats

Mold growing against the walls,

Its starting to shake, starting to fall..

Left for too long and soaked beneath pipes and drains

No where left for water to flow.

No where safe left to stand.

Surrounded, producing poison casts its ways ahead.

Surfing Underwater

I battered the feelings away,
in a soil beneath my brain.

Ignored, lost, unable to regain consciousness.

The surface brings waves which throw me under,
I can't find a reason, to float. To swim.
To stay atop.

Beneath is where you'll find my treasure.

But who would be willing to dig, to dive?

Fake Blue

In the wake of the night.
No matter.
My mind is just tangled in you.
Lost in my imagination
This cold winter fakes blue.

Everything we've just created
I want it to be true.
Everything we had erased
Has made me someone new.

And I fall for you.
Yeah, I need you too.
Fall for you.
What do you do.

I look up to the sky,
Wondering for reasons why.
Is there answers, can we try?
I dont want to say goodbye.

You have dreams, I have them too.
We dont have to let them loose.
We can hide away in bed sheets,
Listening to each others heartbeats.

In the wake of the night.

No matter.

My mind is just tangled in you.

Lost in my imagination

This cold winter fakes blue.

And we fake blue.

The Fear

My heart races for you.
My mind dreams of you.
My stomach grows butterflies in the thought of you.

The feeling I thought I'd never find again..
Has arrived.

I feel knots,
I feel sick,
I feel.

Something other than misery.

I feel want, need, lust.

For if I don't have you,
My breath may stop completely.

I am losing my mind.
For it is you, who has taken it away from me.
I wish you could say that you won't be leaving.
That you won't be hurting.
Me.

My heart races,
Please don't make it stop.

Soul Search

And every cut you scar me with,
Just numbs me to the core.

Everything like shattered glass, I've felt it all before.
And if you try to take my hand,
Just watch for it to break.

'Cause everything you steal from me,
I can't continue to replace.

I'll stay lost behind these walls,
You won't see me if I fall.

The time keeps moving, Im feeling small.

Try to take me away.
Try and steal, but i'm afraid.
You have no words left to say.

You can't take what you break.
You can't take what you took.

Like a heart
continues to beat.
Like the soul in my body, two things that continue to meet.

And if I could disappear,
I would want to be some place so far away from here.
So far away from here.

Don't try to look in my eyes.
Don't try to wipe back my tears.

This isn't your place.
You got no right to leave me,
With fear.

So what did you do to me?
Why did you leave me here?

Insomnia

I'm scared to sleep. You know what I think of? Dying. I think of death. And i'm scared to fall asleep. The part I hate the most is the laying in the dark. I panic, because I think of how much I would rather see or have a light on. If I die in my sleep, I'm afraid I'll be in the dark for eternity. I hate the dark and I'm scared to sleep. Because I just want to live and be awake as much as I am alive. If that means being up waiting for the sun, whether it's sunrise, or sunset, I'm thinking of trying that. I'm so afraid to fall asleep and think I may not make it to another beautiful morning. Crazy isn't it?

The dark is the last thing I'd want to see before I die.

Useless

My hands are shaking.

No, I can't find my grip.

I keep losing it.

I keep losing.

No, I don't feel anything.

I only feel pain.

Im turning numb.

I am fear,

I am anxiety,

I am concerned.

I am paranoia.

As thin as felt, and i'm beginning to tear.

Tear apart, break and fall.

I can't process.

I can't get over this hill thrown in front of me.

My hands are shaking.

My world is breaking.

My life is ending.

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