When Sarcasm Is The Truth

You're shaken up
From the stress at work today.
You're in pieces,
about being able to pay your rent tomorrow.
You can't sleep,
Because you're thinking of the responsibilities
waiting on you tomorrow and the next days of your life.

Meanwhile, death could be knocking at your door.

Any hour. Any minute.

Any second.

But it doesn't matter.
Because there are more important things to do.

The Envy of Time

Please step away
From the shriveling cold
You know you're more
Than what you've settled for
Quietly moving
Because you don't know
When to slow down

I just needed to be held
Escape the world
Inside my head

And breathing
Only turns to fog
So please step away
From the shriveling cold
Kissed my lips
The wish I sold

Ticking Clocks

All the lights,
are turned off and on.

All the streets, driven and then empty.

All the stores, open and close.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Live, die.

Day, night.

Could there be anything that does not follow cycle?

The Time Align

It was a message that lay in my lap.
You held me and whispered apologies,
Words I longed to hear after wasted time.

The process of mixed feelings,
Like digesting sheet metal.

Impossible and homicidal.

I did't pull your clinging force away from me,
I stayed and held a burned out fire.
Our forces were rekindled magnets from the past.

A night lived under stars and crowded patio gathering.
Your kiss was as close as a second, in my resistance.

Nostalgia and closure thanked the moment.
My brain fading off raging lust and peace of sorrow.

The cobblestone lead me home,

Alone.

Declining Freedom

Scorned in your stare.
Betrayed the home that held you.

Abandoned the love that made you.
Stole the people that let you.

One single quiet rose left blooming in fields array.
But the wind cannot move when there is nothing here to push it.

Thorns waiting to pierce through intricate fingertips that refuse to touch.
And each and every petal will melt it's red pigmentation
Into a puddle amongst the ground below it's fall.

Without the air, no voices will be carried.
Without a drip of love, hearts begin to grow weary.

Landscapes have collapsed like a painting of colours bleeding into one.

A lonely rose left uprooted in the earth continuing to hold it's roots.
It is possible to let go of everything, but the stem of pain expanding your fracture.

...

Yet time will leave you behind,
The way you deserted life treating you kind.
Like tripping over shoes left untied.
Impossible to heal what you cannot rewind.

Everything meant permanent in your life, has been chosen to be tossed out a window.
You cannot replace or retrieve what was given but gone unrecognized.

You will only realize this when your eyes reclaim they're potential
Of waking and blinking after a solid sleep.
Of focusing in on blurred vision.

And all you'll see is an empty room.
Not even the walls have been painted.

Creation is our artistry.
Destruction is your backfired weapon.

You can't go back to the house you left.
You can't take back the past that is gone.
You can't live without traveling the road ahead.

Each step you take is backwards,
Bad luck is not your curse.

Hands held out to save you,
Each time, you chose 'Reverse.'

Stitched to Air

It's just the disease talking.
But you know it's been outlived.

Today you told me your heart asked you where I am.

I've been here the entire time.

A pillow feels best when shared.

Restless For the Waiters

Everyday you sit
At your desk.

Check this page.

Invade this parade.

Because maybe if we could join each other.
No one would know what it feels like to be alone...

Sometimes I am willing to give that up.
But it's the only thing I have that is permanent.

Isolated in this seclusion,

No one can make this half a whole.

There's Another 11:11, Tomorrow.

Got scared.

Pushed.

Come back.

What now?

I felt the same.

And, I know.

But you don't.

Gone...

Fake Blue

In the wake of the night.
No matter.
My mind is just tangled in you.
Lost in my imagination
This cold winter fakes blue.

Everything we've just created
I want it to be true.
Everything we had erased
Has made me someone new.

And I fall for you.
Yeah, I need you too.
Fall for you.
What do you do.

I look up to the sky,
Wondering for reasons why.
Is there answers, can we try?
I dont want to say goodbye.

You have dreams, I have them too.
We dont have to let them loose.
We can hide away in bed sheets,
Listening to each others heartbeats.

In the wake of the night.

No matter.

My mind is just tangled in you.

Lost in my imagination

This cold winter fakes blue.

And we fake blue.

Cheers

I know I tried my best.

It wasn't what you wanted.

I don't have to wait for someone

who lost the ability to make me happy.

To make me smile.

Why should I stick around just to make you laugh?

You aren't worth my time,

When I know that all you are able to do, is waste it.

I'd rather be alone.

It seems too hard to find what you're searching for.

Almost hopeless or impossible.

Here's to another broken heart, and many more to come.

The Reminder

When you forget that life is real, take a breath and remind yourself of this existence. You are alive in life’s every moment, and every second counts for something.

Forgive, don't forget.

It wasn't you who upset me. You really want to know what I'm upset about? I can't remember the last time I was happy. The last time I was happy, I was living life and loving it, learning and realizing myself the way I never had before. I wasn't ready for a relationship but I agreed to put myself in that position when I answered "yes." to establishing one with you. I had just found my happiness and soon after that, misery stole  me back. You took away my fucking happiness. I'm not okay with myself when I look back and realize that happiness could have lasted longer. I ignored my instincts, the warning signs by trying to believe I'd be missing out on a great opportunity if I didn't take it. But it ended. I wasn't what you wanted. I gave it my best. It wasn't enough for you. And now I have to start all over again. You wasted my time, and I let you. I was consistently waiting for you, always let down and disappointed. But I was still the one who was willing to fight. You just let me go like it was nothing, like it was so easy. Do you feel pain?

You cut me out of your life and now I'm here again. And it isn't fair. I don't deserve this. You definitely never deserved me. I understand that. It's unfortunate I am even experiencing these feelings when you have already been seen prancing around other girls...Did I really mean nothing to you, at all? Am I really that worthless?

The answer is no, I'm not. You had no right to let me feel that way. No right..At all. Who do you think you are? That is something I'll never know. You deserve the misery in your life, and not having time for anyone. You don't deserve anything. I would never say such a thing. About anyone. But I realized I hate you. I try not to, but I do. And I will not apologize for it. You will never find someone like me. You lost your grip and I'm glad you let go. Because I notice so much more. And I bet you don't notice a thing at all. You once told me you were heartless... I should have believed you.