Two Souls

Yesterday you walked by me,
And dropped your heart on the floor.

I wish I could give it back to you.

Where Am I

All in my mind
Fast forwarding to rewind
Uphill then decline
Can't explain
What's inside

Thoughts so loud
I can't see what's around
No matter how found
My hearts lost
No matter how happy
Those wings entail cost

And I'm getting heavy
No one to hear what's going on
In my head
All thoughts left unsaid

And I cannot escape
I am drowning
Wherever I lay
Wherever I stand
No comfort
No hand

Everything outside is beautiful
But Inside feels so dull
Everything hurts
Trapped and burning alive

But I'm
Alive
Inside
What feels like
A coffin
Waiting to be dug
And arrive to a light
On the other side

The Ego Critic

She tries to take off,
Off the ground and bound to the sky.

Her feet are stuck in ground she cannot break.

Inability to cut her own rope.
Build a noose, that cant get loose.

Her demons fight her, hold her, trap her.
A plant dying for water that won't fall from the sky.

And reality reminds her dreams to go away.
She can't come back to life.

Do Not Resuscitate

A broken arrow wounding
The breathing, the beating.

Wind entering, exits.
And there is no concept of logic anymore.

All the love offered goes unrecognized,
Lost and sinking in a lonely soul.

Seeking, paddling, breaking.

Nothing ever feels enough.

No happiness to rely on trust.

And if I could start over,
I would.

Don't forgive my bare decisions
I don't deserve to live.

If all I can do...is hurt you.

Surviving A Coma

You thought that I was edible.
Indestructible.
Sedated.

On bedrest under a spell, dreaming alive but below.

Your eyes swallowed me whole, and your lips drew my breath
From out of my lungs.

Oxygen must have remained in this room.
Because I woke up after the anesthetics wore off. 

Evanescent Atmosphere

Gathered in the wind that sways.
The silence of the cosmos carries me
Like rushing tidal waves.

Every dream seemingly lucid.
Every waken moment seemingly surreal.

Every cell is holding on to every broken piece,
The pieces need to be thrown into the ocean.
Find their ways back to each other.
Create wholes, and duplicates of fibre.

Strength hammers louder than the sobbing of tears.
You could see it blinding from a mile away.

You would follow light, and avoid dark.
But mentally opposite than physical direction.

I don't know who speaks for you,
Tired, worn and lost in depravity..
Lack of attention, you cling to like gravity.

Each bone in your body screaming your own name,
But you don't listen to what they ask.

Your quivering has taught me of the cold that shakes you.
Where is the shield you once used to attend to?

Becoming invisible from all of the steps it takes to crush,
Everything to power down electricity within a rush.

Declining Freedom

Scorned in your stare.
Betrayed the home that held you.

Abandoned the love that made you.
Stole the people that let you.

One single quiet rose left blooming in fields array.
But the wind cannot move when there is nothing here to push it.

Thorns waiting to pierce through intricate fingertips that refuse to touch.
And each and every petal will melt it's red pigmentation
Into a puddle amongst the ground below it's fall.

Without the air, no voices will be carried.
Without a drip of love, hearts begin to grow weary.

Landscapes have collapsed like a painting of colours bleeding into one.

A lonely rose left uprooted in the earth continuing to hold it's roots.
It is possible to let go of everything, but the stem of pain expanding your fracture.

...

Yet time will leave you behind,
The way you deserted life treating you kind.
Like tripping over shoes left untied.
Impossible to heal what you cannot rewind.

Everything meant permanent in your life, has been chosen to be tossed out a window.
You cannot replace or retrieve what was given but gone unrecognized.

You will only realize this when your eyes reclaim they're potential
Of waking and blinking after a solid sleep.
Of focusing in on blurred vision.

And all you'll see is an empty room.
Not even the walls have been painted.

Creation is our artistry.
Destruction is your backfired weapon.

You can't go back to the house you left.
You can't take back the past that is gone.
You can't live without traveling the road ahead.

Each step you take is backwards,
Bad luck is not your curse.

Hands held out to save you,
Each time, you chose 'Reverse.'

Through The Path

You dropped me at the end of your rope,
I no longer know how to climb.

Landed among a broken comet, a dying garden.
The threads will break me down,
No one to sew them together.

Life and it's wind constantly exhaling,
Nature forgets to take a breath in.

Thrown out, rained out, washed up.
And we come here just to leave,
With wears of pain conceived.

Teach me to fly,
To stop me from falls.

White clouds blinding me,
No sleep decaying me.

I wonder if everything we wonder, could be real.
Love left us all a long time ago,
I'm not sure it can be found.

Leashes to be established.
Become my own security,
My own brace.

Attempting existence underground,
I can no longer dream against planets out of reach.

The dark can absorb my remains,
Break down, decompose.

Permanent footsteps imprinted on pavement,
Living above my caved, sacred basement.

This is my leave from you, world.


Sincerely,
Resisting your arrest.

Damaged Goods

Caught in the past, a web of reminiscence.
Holding it's loss in your heart.
Gone for long and you are still,
Powerlessly clinging to thoughts that make you ill.

And all this hurt makes a breeze magnify,
Feelings erupting, lava ready to cry...

Your mistakes have been replaced,
Liquor wasted, a child for the disgrace.

You forgot to send love to the witness,
Still looking back and missing present bliss.

Give him back what you took away,
His souls a broken disarray. 

Cleaning Dishes

When all he does is sell his sins,
You know you have been warned.

When all he does is walk away,
You know you have been told.

When he can't give you what you want,
You know how it will end.

When you want to stick around
For something that is just nothing,
That is your request to get burned.

And all the stars are shining, but you've got your eyes on one.
When everything is fading, it's time to start running.

Find the sun now, find the sun.

Failing at Quitting

Lowered to your degree,

Given away. Entirety. Everything.

Effort, after effort, and there is still no return.

Accepted your silence, rebelled against protection.

I was never good at goodbyes,

Here is the approach.

Magic potion, stealing heartbeats.

Vital signs created to prove that we're alive.

No matter what they tell you, it doesn't feel that way inside.

Tonight You Said Goodbye

I tore myself open for you,
You crawled right in.

No caution. No whispers.
Warning signs ignored.

Nausea now taking up my organs,
Heaving the regret you gave me.
The regret I let happen, all alone.

This sickness will eat me alive now,
I bid you leave.

Leave me.
It's easier to imagine you never existed.
A story I just read in a book.
I will bury it in the deepest, darkest shelf.

Never return to a vanishing soul,
That will not fight
For the heart you have already given.

Stolen in Months of May

My heart chokes on itself,
I spit blood.

Coughing out the poison I swallowed in your kiss.
I am infected, infested, addicted.
I need your hands in mine.

Lay here with me forever,
We don't need to make a sound.

Lay. Existing only in this darkness.

Sweep the pain away.
You touch my skin, you remove me.
Completely.

Out of my encased shell, holding my soul.
I'll slip into your chest now.

And I'm not like the others,
No I landed here, a fallen comet.
From above, steal me.
Quiet. Our lips magnetic.

All I asked for are countless more moments,
As soft as our colliding skin.

I beg for more days.
I scream for you.

I will wait an eternity.
If time is needed to heal your wounds.

I'll be here, when they close.
Heal. Quench.

Breathe. Again.

Around The Block

The world started to feel small.

As if it were possible to walk one length to the other end in only minutes...

Desire started to drain, passion lost.

No sense of love just lack of interest, inspiration, emotions.

A staple to punch through all the loose, lost pieces of papers..

Pages stained, must be stacked together.

Because she is walking but her eyes are stuck on the ground.

The sky waits for her to glare back up again.

Home Bound

The drapes being dragged open
Sunlight, come in.

Lost the verge of madness,
In myself I wasted sin.

Skin to golden ray,
Smile Ive stumbled a way

Back to Earth you fall
Out of dark again,

Goodbye stars, my friend.

Life awaits, again.

Depersonalization

Spine detached from body,
Contrast bleeds, gleaming violet.

Artery pulsing,
Quiet thunder.

Xray technology
To find the crack.

A stitch to repair,
Cataclysm to mend.

Living, burning intoxication.
Fortifying an absent heart.
An exterminated, deceased mind.

Out of Tune

To get to these places,
beyond the shadows.

I am unaware
Of the departure.
Arrival.

Process of melancholy.
Constant state.

I live in the clouds.

Because I don't belong on land.

In the mind which speaks.
Consuming each aspect of being.

The heart cannot be found nor heard of.
It's been gone for much too long.

Restless For the Waiters

Everyday you sit
At your desk.

Check this page.

Invade this parade.

Because maybe if we could join each other.
No one would know what it feels like to be alone...

Sometimes I am willing to give that up.
But it's the only thing I have that is permanent.

Isolated in this seclusion,

No one can make this half a whole.

Fleeting

If there is something that could save me, do it now.
If there are reasons for this temporary, please let me know now.

If you could help me feel sane, please. Cure me now.

I have lost passion.
I have lost.
Feeling.

I am breathing but not existing.

Breaking down, and missing.

This life, it could not be real..

Where Do You Go

We spent a night unlike no other.
Curled up to you're body, buried in you're chest.
The sound of you're heart beat.


I just wonder what it was.
You have left me with silence.

I have become invisible.

And in this suffering I wait, continuously glaring into you're empty crevasse.
And the time moves on without me, and you along with time.

Apathetic and cold, with all of my power I aim to melt away.