A Lotus Rises

The fatigue
Is ever lasting.
I thought the same about darkness,
Until then came light.

I have placed myself
Along elements
Earth, air, water, fire.
Back to the roots,
Feel grounded.
Back to the connection
Feel one. All is one.

And when your heart is racing
Just close your eyes and send
A trusting thought
Into the universe.

Light a candle and swim,
Keep your gaze on the flame.

It dances and wakes up the dark,
Comforts, and warms your aching bones.
Sit and stay a while,
Breathe and kiss your solid wounds.

The Bricks We're Made Of

People are just shadows,

Silhouettes in the dark of a lamp lit room.

We don't really see anything but the wall we're cast on.

Our sudden movements, drawing motions like mere wind.

And everything that is golden is always buried in the last box.

Maybe that's why so many people create their own and fill it with jewellery. 

We hear about stories of the rainbow, and magic fairies from another land.

And we always believe or cling to the hope without the existence of it's presence.

If we could break down the wall,

Maybe we could land amongst another planet.

If we could break down the wall,

Maybe we could escape our sullen shadows.

Break away with the switch of a light, and enter a valley of Eden.

Beneath Your Shade, And Waiting

In the wake of a renaissance
I hold on to you, closely.

but you don't see that.

You're vision is impaired
Toward me.
While I lean toward you.
Unseen.

I hide in the silence
And wonder..

There is nothing else I can do or say
to try and repair you.

Constantly I glare into you're eyes
And give you words you lack of hearing.

But you are also deafened by it all.
Im standing right here, not wanting to say goodbye.
Abiding as long as I possibly could...
You are so far off into another distance.

So far off into another land.
I am entirely here.

I just don't know how to get you here, with me.

Liquified

Glorious, candle light waking up the dark.

All I could ask for was this place of safety and of love.

Why did you take that away from me?

Melted wax is all that remains in this place of melted hopes, hearts, and dreams.

Everything that you created, became light.

But you were quick to let go, to burn out.

Ashes twinkle in silver moonlight,

I'm off...

To sleep in my imagination,

Because I no longer know if reality, is real.

Skipping Beats

I am everywhere.
I am pieces.
I am air.
I am dark and light.
I am sun and sky.
I am wind and warmth.

My heart beats, my lungs expand.

My mind changes everything, everyday.
Sometimes I forget who and where I am.
Other days I know exactly what this is.
Exactly what I want.

But today I woke up to feel like I am disappearing.
Losing. Giving up hope.
Falling.

Waiting.
To hit the bottom, and crash.

Crash into more pieces,
multiples of millions.

Of Earth and sand and traveling particles.
To reach space, and stars and all countries of the world.

Because these places are lacking me, and I am lacking them.
Lacking love, and discovery and life in other universes.

I'm trying to hold on,
But I feel like I am being pulled into another place,
On the other side.

Somewhere else wants or needs me,
And I don't want to be here anymore.

I just want to feel alive,
Feel okay.

Feel whatever it is I can't anymore.

I think that I've lost my heart.
I think my chest is filled with sadness,
And now all that I am... is incapable of breathing.

Disappearing Wishes

Water running over rocks,
Like drowning souls inside a stream.

Bleeding water through my veins,

Like ice melting through broken seams.

Dreams fading,

Over transformations left at failure.

Wings dying,

When hope gave up believing in a saviour.

And they all rain down together,
Circling from sky to water.

Everything below looks up,
Everything above, smiling down.

Thank-you.

You make me smile. You make me feel. Again. You make me remember hope. You make me remember the butterflies and endless smiles. You compliment me the way no one else does. And I don’t want to have my hopes too high. But you make me happy, and that is enough for now.