Two Souls

Yesterday you walked by me,
And dropped your heart on the floor.

I wish I could give it back to you.

Black Hole

The fear that pulses through these veins
It's like a poison
It makes you ill, paranoid, terrified.

I've never known a better enemy nor friend.

Have you tried to break yourself?
But really you just wanted to operate the pain out.

We use destructive methods,
When we can't figure out accurate ones.

Do you get bored with solutions?
You want one so bad,
But at the same time
You feed off of being so lost,
So hurt.
You really just want to know,
How much deeper
You can get.

How much more pain
You can take.

So you break yourself.

Why must we always discover the paths
With dead ends?
Circles.

You can't hit the breaks when you're afraid.
You have to speed into the terror, eyes wide open.

Walk straight this time,
Be brave next time.

Where Am I

All in my mind
Fast forwarding to rewind
Uphill then decline
Can't explain
What's inside

Thoughts so loud
I can't see what's around
No matter how found
My hearts lost
No matter how happy
Those wings entail cost

And I'm getting heavy
No one to hear what's going on
In my head
All thoughts left unsaid

And I cannot escape
I am drowning
Wherever I lay
Wherever I stand
No comfort
No hand

Everything outside is beautiful
But Inside feels so dull
Everything hurts
Trapped and burning alive

But I'm
Alive
Inside
What feels like
A coffin
Waiting to be dug
And arrive to a light
On the other side

A Wounded Landscape

There's a crack in the cliff I've been sleeping in.

The darkness pulled together,
Magnetic and synthetic.

But if the earth can tear apart
Just enough for me to fall in.

It will tear apart again.
Let me out.

Breathe. Ascend.

The Mindless

What have you carried away?

All of the broken bones.
With no where to store them.

Just take them, and leave them.
And come back for more.
There is nothing left, for robbery.

The lack of heart you cannot find, gives you no right to take from mine.

Do Not Resuscitate

A broken arrow wounding
The breathing, the beating.

Wind entering, exits.
And there is no concept of logic anymore.

All the love offered goes unrecognized,
Lost and sinking in a lonely soul.

Seeking, paddling, breaking.

Nothing ever feels enough.

No happiness to rely on trust.

And if I could start over,
I would.

Don't forgive my bare decisions
I don't deserve to live.

If all I can do...is hurt you.

Closed Windows

Slowly he wakes, slowly tuning out the buzzing of reality.

"You're turn to fly..." I whispered.

I'm handing out wings for the broken.

It's time we share the sky.

Evanescent Atmosphere

Gathered in the wind that sways.
The silence of the cosmos carries me
Like rushing tidal waves.

Every dream seemingly lucid.
Every waken moment seemingly surreal.

Every cell is holding on to every broken piece,
The pieces need to be thrown into the ocean.
Find their ways back to each other.
Create wholes, and duplicates of fibre.

Strength hammers louder than the sobbing of tears.
You could see it blinding from a mile away.

You would follow light, and avoid dark.
But mentally opposite than physical direction.

I don't know who speaks for you,
Tired, worn and lost in depravity..
Lack of attention, you cling to like gravity.

Each bone in your body screaming your own name,
But you don't listen to what they ask.

Your quivering has taught me of the cold that shakes you.
Where is the shield you once used to attend to?

Becoming invisible from all of the steps it takes to crush,
Everything to power down electricity within a rush.

Sobbing Under Covers

Taken away my oxygen tank,
Rainy day, this body sank.

And I just need an anchor - something to hold me still.
Poisoning myself with things making me ill.

And I can't swallow whole,
And I cant beat this soul.

More than you have taken,
Undone, hands shaken.

To let go, to love, i'll have to find a way,
Suppressed thoughts and words just tend to eat away.

Someone to love me - that is the single wish I made.
Everything is always rebounded, there is no cure, no heart aid.

Cleaning Dishes

When all he does is sell his sins,
You know you have been warned.

When all he does is walk away,
You know you have been told.

When he can't give you what you want,
You know how it will end.

When you want to stick around
For something that is just nothing,
That is your request to get burned.

And all the stars are shining, but you've got your eyes on one.
When everything is fading, it's time to start running.

Find the sun now, find the sun.

Stolen in Months of May

My heart chokes on itself,
I spit blood.

Coughing out the poison I swallowed in your kiss.
I am infected, infested, addicted.
I need your hands in mine.

Lay here with me forever,
We don't need to make a sound.

Lay. Existing only in this darkness.

Sweep the pain away.
You touch my skin, you remove me.
Completely.

Out of my encased shell, holding my soul.
I'll slip into your chest now.

And I'm not like the others,
No I landed here, a fallen comet.
From above, steal me.
Quiet. Our lips magnetic.

All I asked for are countless more moments,
As soft as our colliding skin.

I beg for more days.
I scream for you.

I will wait an eternity.
If time is needed to heal your wounds.

I'll be here, when they close.
Heal. Quench.

Breathe. Again.

Periphery

I never made anything
Of the debris you let collect
In a deserted apartment.

One that was once shared and streamed a live dream...

Company entered to join us at a table
Witnessing our flawless love.

Until the day we let out the dove
To rescue a piece of existence
After our wretched flood.

Her wings never flew back home.

Depersonalization

Spine detached from body,
Contrast bleeds, gleaming violet.

Artery pulsing,
Quiet thunder.

Xray technology
To find the crack.

A stitch to repair,
Cataclysm to mend.

Living, burning intoxication.
Fortifying an absent heart.
An exterminated, deceased mind.

Sick

I dont want to get over anyone
Anymore.

So don't tell me that I will.
When I don't want to.

Dont tell me to let go.
When I cant.

Dont tell me to feel,
When I can't breathe.

If it doesn't last forever, I don't want to be here.
Im sick of pointless temporariness. 

A Sudden Puncture

We spoke effortlessly,

Like music flowing through a breathing instrument.

You have broken my strings.

Safe

And all the guards,
fell down.
And left the locks broken.
Left the fence open.

Anyone can walk in now.

The safety box has been demolished.

Take Me

I'm sorry I pulled away.
I'm sorry I let you down.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to leave you.

I ran. I feared. I lost.

I'm sorry I hid.
I'm sorry I got away.

I didn't realize what I was leaving behind.
What could grow.

I forgot how to feel.
I have blocked every feeling I am capable of feeling.

I have closed completely.
I need to be broken, crashed, picked up and thrown on the ground,
Into a million pieces.

I need to bleed.
I need to see.
Breathe.

Because I cant feel a thing.
I'm motionless, and ending.

I need you to pull me, and take me away with you.

Good Enough is Never Enough

We give our all, and it gets tossed away. We give our hearts and they get broken. It’s as if we will never live without pain. It’s consistently there, fighting with everything we only hope to have.

Never Seen

You never turned back around.
To look for me.
Never called my name again.

Never asked if I were okay.

But you still echo in my head.
And there is nothing but silence you left between.

It hurts more seeing that I was never seen
At all.

The Desert We Lived In

You felt unloved by me,
I felt unloved by you.

A dehydrated desert waits for rain.

Our storm just never came.

The whole thing just crumbled,
and tore apart.