Adrenaline Rush

The world collapsed in space.
Became it's own Universe.

We travel endlessly in spiralling galaxies.
I believe we need to find Love.

I believe we need to fight.

Like fire to wood, be more than flame to dust.

Expand, without extinguishing.

Share your hand, share your heart.

Feel your pulse.
Breathe.
Deep.

Sobbing Under Covers

Taken away my oxygen tank,
Rainy day, this body sank.

And I just need an anchor - something to hold me still.
Poisoning myself with things making me ill.

And I can't swallow whole,
And I cant beat this soul.

More than you have taken,
Undone, hands shaken.

To let go, to love, i'll have to find a way,
Suppressed thoughts and words just tend to eat away.

Someone to love me - that is the single wish I made.
Everything is always rebounded, there is no cure, no heart aid.

Nostalgia Avenue

The tears on your pillow case,
Have evaporated.

That's all you have left,
Of a night left in pitch black.

Left in awe
Of the final event
You never called.

An expectation you didn't hold.
I am the pilot flying the chambers of my own heart..

Over distant, sparkling
And far away lands.

In all of that I cannot grasp
An understanding
For why you choose not love,
But fear.

Tonight You Said Goodbye

I tore myself open for you,
You crawled right in.

No caution. No whispers.
Warning signs ignored.

Nausea now taking up my organs,
Heaving the regret you gave me.
The regret I let happen, all alone.

This sickness will eat me alive now,
I bid you leave.

Leave me.
It's easier to imagine you never existed.
A story I just read in a book.
I will bury it in the deepest, darkest shelf.

Never return to a vanishing soul,
That will not fight
For the heart you have already given.

Nights in Mystic Reverie

The waves have gotten far now.
Have they forgotten the shore?
I spent my nights submerged in lake
My heart not wanting more.

A time to feel the breeze
and let it take my thoughts from me.
A time to look up, experiencing
The astronomy that is holding me.

It was a kiss that was stolen,
A beat that ran away.

The waves have gotten far now.
Please don't get too carried away.

Find It

You were ravishing and full of love-

Seek that within yourself.

Don’t wish that you were someone else.

If I had something left to say

I would tell you to

Find you’re heart, and carry it.

Don’t bury it.

If you could hold on to the one thing

That leads you to the right things

Would you let it go?

When you’re all alone in a dark, cold room

You look around and guess that it’s over too soon

But you forgot the lights were on

You forgot the best surrounds

And you once had me

The time I fell, you didn’t wait for me

And at the bottom there were tears

That got me up and brought me here

Loneliness was a best friend

But I’m back at the top again.

The Crystal Hearts

It glistens in the light,
It sparkles in the sun.
It shines, through dips and cuts.
The hiding places that make it up.

In silver, in gold.
In bands "forever."

The significance, the circle that is an eternity.

We walk, we hold and this is love.

We are crystal recycled.
We are crystal, fragile.

Too easy to break, too beautiful to look at.

Quick to shatter, delicate to learn.

This is love.

Indescribable and filled with beats.

You need to fall, to feel.

Shell

I really lost my heart.
And this time I can't find it.
I call for it,
I look for it.
It is nowhere.
All that leads me, is my mind.
All I hear is my mind,
So I listen.

It could be up to me to change.
But instead, I sit here waiting..
Because it always feels like there is something that is going to happen.
Something, an awakening, anything.
Nothing ever happens. And the waiting will not. ever. stop.
Right?

So do I force myself up out the door and try to find sanity
within the crowds and routine lived by others?
Creating the same thing for myself...?

I am looking for my heart,
because I have blocked off everything I can feel.

And I can't feel.
So, I don't know
What I care about.

I try to dig that knife into my skin,
Into my wrists.
Just so that I can feel SOMETHING.

And I wake up to examine the marks I left.
I need to know that I am real. I need to feel it.
But instead.
I am just dead.
I am just...empty.

Just a shell.

Skipping Beats

I am everywhere.
I am pieces.
I am air.
I am dark and light.
I am sun and sky.
I am wind and warmth.

My heart beats, my lungs expand.

My mind changes everything, everyday.
Sometimes I forget who and where I am.
Other days I know exactly what this is.
Exactly what I want.

But today I woke up to feel like I am disappearing.
Losing. Giving up hope.
Falling.

Waiting.
To hit the bottom, and crash.

Crash into more pieces,
multiples of millions.

Of Earth and sand and traveling particles.
To reach space, and stars and all countries of the world.

Because these places are lacking me, and I am lacking them.
Lacking love, and discovery and life in other universes.

I'm trying to hold on,
But I feel like I am being pulled into another place,
On the other side.

Somewhere else wants or needs me,
And I don't want to be here anymore.

I just want to feel alive,
Feel okay.

Feel whatever it is I can't anymore.

I think that I've lost my heart.
I think my chest is filled with sadness,
And now all that I am... is incapable of breathing.

Cheers

I know I tried my best.

It wasn't what you wanted.

I don't have to wait for someone

who lost the ability to make me happy.

To make me smile.

Why should I stick around just to make you laugh?

You aren't worth my time,

When I know that all you are able to do, is waste it.

I'd rather be alone.

It seems too hard to find what you're searching for.

Almost hopeless or impossible.

Here's to another broken heart, and many more to come.