Take Me

I'm sorry I pulled away.
I'm sorry I let you down.
I never meant to hurt you.
I never meant to leave you.

I ran. I feared. I lost.

I'm sorry I hid.
I'm sorry I got away.

I didn't realize what I was leaving behind.
What could grow.

I forgot how to feel.
I have blocked every feeling I am capable of feeling.

I have closed completely.
I need to be broken, crashed, picked up and thrown on the ground,
Into a million pieces.

I need to bleed.
I need to see.
Breathe.

Because I cant feel a thing.
I'm motionless, and ending.

I need you to pull me, and take me away with you.

Caution

A knock at the door is what made my day.

A knock at the door.

A surprise.

A person.

Who cautioned me not to get my heart into this..

I haven't, I won't and I also can't...
The truth is I don't feel anything at all.
And I don't know how to begin to feel
Again.

Useless

My hands are shaking.

No, I can't find my grip.

I keep losing it.

I keep losing.

No, I don't feel anything.

I only feel pain.

Im turning numb.

I am fear,

I am anxiety,

I am concerned.

I am paranoia.

As thin as felt, and i'm beginning to tear.

Tear apart, break and fall.

I can't process.

I can't get over this hill thrown in front of me.

My hands are shaking.

My world is breaking.

My life is ending.

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