Falling

I guess it was
A taste for the future.

What to feel.
What to hold.
What to know I have
When I have it.

What to search for..
You gave me a night.
I won't forget.

Like a saviour
You held me.

We fell...
Into dreamland.

Shell

I really lost my heart.
And this time I can't find it.
I call for it,
I look for it.
It is nowhere.
All that leads me, is my mind.
All I hear is my mind,
So I listen.

It could be up to me to change.
But instead, I sit here waiting..
Because it always feels like there is something that is going to happen.
Something, an awakening, anything.
Nothing ever happens. And the waiting will not. ever. stop.
Right?

So do I force myself up out the door and try to find sanity
within the crowds and routine lived by others?
Creating the same thing for myself...?

I am looking for my heart,
because I have blocked off everything I can feel.

And I can't feel.
So, I don't know
What I care about.

I try to dig that knife into my skin,
Into my wrists.
Just so that I can feel SOMETHING.

And I wake up to examine the marks I left.
I need to know that I am real. I need to feel it.
But instead.
I am just dead.
I am just...empty.

Just a shell.

Never Seen

You never turned back around.
To look for me.
Never called my name again.

Never asked if I were okay.

But you still echo in my head.
And there is nothing but silence you left between.

It hurts more seeing that I was never seen
At all.

The World We Live In

The world. It's this place we're living in. It's this place we can explore and discover endless possibilities. It's a reminder of all the beauty that surrounds us, even when we aren't noticing. Even when we have forgotten. The beauty here is in everything. All you have to do is look up at the stars. And see that they are shining.