Nostalgia Avenue

The tears on your pillow case,
Have evaporated.

That's all you have left,
Of a night left in pitch black.

Left in awe
Of the final event
You never called.

An expectation you didn't hold.
I am the pilot flying the chambers of my own heart..

Over distant, sparkling
And far away lands.

In all of that I cannot grasp
An understanding
For why you choose not love,
But fear.

Transform

No thoughts come to mind
For a reason
To care
To cling to air,

That only wants to push me away..

You're silence is enough
For me to know that I'm not enough.

So for now I'll just turn into rain.

Abandonment

My heart clings, you leave.
It stings.

You go away.
You never come back.
We never speak again.

My heart is left with a permanent mark.
A reminder to not get close to people.

I could never understand why goodbye's have been so difficult for me.
But I realize now. Im alone.

The few I have let in, the few I were close with that meant everything to me, disappeared.
I lose faith.
And start to believe that I am meant to be alone.

The guards grow, I will never escape this cave I've surrounded myself with.

But everyone else will...

Liquified

Glorious, candle light waking up the dark.

All I could ask for was this place of safety and of love.

Why did you take that away from me?

Melted wax is all that remains in this place of melted hopes, hearts, and dreams.

Everything that you created, became light.

But you were quick to let go, to burn out.

Ashes twinkle in silver moonlight,

I'm off...

To sleep in my imagination,

Because I no longer know if reality, is real.

The Pretentious

The secrets that are eating away at our insides,

The smiles we use to look happy when really we're sad, 

The cover-up's, and the masks to hide just who we are..

Make us different, and interesting. 

Then I think that it would be better if these things came out,

instead of letting them tear you to pieces.

Plays of Repeat

Every part of her was awakening.
Everything living.
And beautiful.

But in the end, it all goes away.
All it took was one thing.


And all the pieces fell apart, once again.