The Chemicals That Control Us

I don't know what sort of lessons you need.

But, you can see mine through my fingerprints.

What happens inside,
Might change your light.

You're a different colour now,
Then the day you were born.

Ocean

I would need a bucket filled with stars,
To tell you how I feel.

I can feel the blood inside me, move.
I can feel the breath inside me, breathe.

I can feel the world pulling me to the west.
That's where we meet,
Like the Atlantic and Pacific.

Magnetic, rushing, crashing.
Waves.

Infinity Sign

Last night you told me,
"I'll be gone soon.."

And death scattered in the sky,
I shut the door
And cried in a pocket
Where no light could get in.

I don't want to fall asleep,
Without ever living again.

"You will never die."
He wrote.

"You, are light."

The Connected

I'm not a distance or a number,
Just a light without an expiration.

No end or beginning,
Just transformation,
Expansion.

I didn't need to ask myself who I am
I was born with an answer.

I can feel it in my left rib.
I can hear it all inside.

The world is just a loveless, lonely place, where all the souls are left to hide.

The Letter M

I remember the bend in the step,
The texture of the grass we once lay in.

And front yards sit in sunlight,
Porches and memories.

You capture pictures,
Circle the country.

Kaleidoscope, corner mirrors the seas,
I couldn't drive by without erasing
What you gave me.

A fallacy with feelings and heartbeat.
They write books for a reason.

Pick Up The Revolver

You know,
They carved a landscape.
And named it after you.

Every curve perfect,
Every flaw, an admiration.

But it doesn't even echo here
When I shout your name.

I guess that means, you don't hear me.

I guess that means,
I wish you would.

I never recognize the quiet
Until I'm the only one lost in it.
Screaming in it.

So now I'll try to whisper.

Touch Screen

I want to hold you
And stare into your eyes.

The blue would get me every time.

Just the way you held me so tight
Hardly left room for air.

I wish your home was mine.

The Ill

Gravity will take you,
Like silver in the stars.

Every thing you've spent waiting,
Comes for you in the dark.

And you'd think it'd be bigger,
But in the end, it's only small.

When the wall caves in,
Where do you escape?

When lungs are crushed,
The last breath to take.

Time Lapse

I can feel the anxiety,
Beating at my insides.

I treat it as a friend, and an enemy.

But it is just bad the one.

It gets me to get me.
Find me, then lose me.

If you were to give me a bottle of pills,
I wouldn't even take them.

It's not the cure it wants,
it's destruction.

And destruction makes me feel, alive.

British Columbia

The headaches come and go.
Just like the pain of blinking you
In and out of sight.

It was a disorder much too advanced
To cure, or understand.

And even if someone brought flowers, or offered a gun

To be out out of misery
I question which is worth it.

The mystery in all these molecules,
The crazy and unseen,
Keeps the foot to the petal.

I'll drive till the sun rises over mountains.

Ratchet

I don't know what they told you.
But some minds are like a prison.
A hell that some can't find their ways out of. A loss.
And if your lucky, that was just a time. A place.

And I don't know what they told you
About life either.
Some are worse than prisons.
Some don't have hope,
Some have everything and more.

And if they ever mention anything
About love.

The only thing I hope they tell you,
Is that it's worth it.