Orange

Sensual
It tingles
I swear you could be real

Not just a presence I believe exists
Not just a tempted, loaded kiss

My heart, it breathes
My limbs, they ache.

And everything is soft and full of desire

Everything as white as snow
The temperature drops
And everything rises

We are heat, and warmth
Bed sheets to ravel our secret
Between closed mouths
We keep it

Drink In my spirit
And turn off my light
I'll never forget
To kiss you goodnight

Sleeping in Space

Last night I had a dream
I went to space
I didn't come back

But I'll tell you this
I stood on mars
Red and absorbing
Mesmerizing and shaken

I slept on Saturn
Bright and yellow
Danced on her rings
explored all the fellows

Different creatures
Different games
A reality we have found
That's not sane

Closed my eyes and went to sleep
Lost in space
Where I'll stay,
Go to sleep.

They Call it Caving

I feel like I am
Standing in a novel

But it's just a building
With windows

Cause outside looks so far away
Overcast and filled with grey

Traffic sails and winds that fray

Cities filled with pride
I hide in mountains, life's disguised

Because if reality is this crowded
I'll need a secret place

People tight and wounded
All living a dysfunctional race

Out of balance
Pop your pills
Cast away the black that spills

And hang on to the glitter
Reading through the night

Escaping from a box
Without a manual
Within the rocks

Overtime

Just a piece?
He asked.
But I am not full of pieces
Or answers
Or questions
Or mirrors
Or tension.

I am a picture without a frame.
I am solid without a game.
I don't need words
Or whispered songs

You said too much
And it was all wrong

But I have stars
That fall apart

And I have skies that lay above
And you have love that is lost

Sorry for leaving
Sorry for your silence

I broke, you faded
I once was blue, lonely and jaded.

Then something speaks to you,
Traveling and gleaming true.

I have nothing left to give
So don't look this way
I have found a place to live
So breathe now, let's forgive.

The Comatose State

Upside down
Trees look more tangled
More frightening than sheltering

The sky looks more like a postcard
To a place that can't be traveled

The ground looks more dull
And frozen

The shadows look like yourself
And you're terrified

When you move, they move.
When you think, your thoughts think.

Biting your nails won't save you,
But you tend to continue the habit

Bite your tongue instead,
Believe the dark is dead.

Arrows fly far ahead,
have you followed
Where they lead?

Have you healed where you bleed?
Swept the dust from your knees?

Kiss the stars that shed
As you lie awake in bed
Waiting for the panic
When your minds satanic.

Burried in books,
Words are oxygen.
Keep reading.

Agoraphobia

I swerved into a galaxy
Everything was red
Like I was standing inside a fire.

My hands shake, and my heart
Beats
Beats out of my chest

And I try to find a pill to cure
What's happening
And I try to find an exit to escape
Where I've been

The more you run,
The more lost you'll get.

The hallway becomes longer,
The door gets further
Until you realize
The door is an illusion
A tease.

Hold on to your rope
Clench on to light
It still bleeds through cracks

If this were another dimension
I wouldn't know the difference
Between life
And death.
Black or white.

Sparks

You were a glimpse of light.

The one people wait for to peak over the horizon.

But you never rose.
You fell, you burnt out.

More like a comet, but I was hoping for the sun.

I'll still stare at the sky,
With starry eyes.

Wait for the night
To arrive.

Look up; you are guaranteed beauty.

But by foot I have the world to see.
A map to hold.

A friend to sing,
"Embrace the sky."

Sorry I'm so Far

Some days
I swear I could hear a voice inside me.
I could see the truth in front of me.
Just a shadow that lingers.

I swear that somedays I am strong and fearless.
And others I fall and melt away.

And when the panic kicks in,
I'm surrounded.
And when goodbyes are said,
I am bounded.

There are pages I want to fill,
Words brewing, waiting to spill.

I am paralyzed by the cold.

Passing Time

Don't give up on me
I'm right around the corner.
I would give you jars of love
And send them around the world.

Everyone deserves to hold this,
We all have something we miss.

Stay afloat
Breathe the air.

Water is here,
We must take care.

If my words were enough to save you
I would never stop writing them.

Take a letter,
Take a hand
Take it in.

Be here fully
Evolve eternally.

Wear a smile.
Wear a frown.

Just don't forget
Who you are.

Clock

You can sit for hours
And convince yourself to believe
You can try to fight
What you want
Until everyone just leaves

You've been watching the clock
Too long
You've been missing someone
Who's gone
You want everything that isn't left
Inside you're head, just a mess

You can pray to the dark
And hope to fall asleep
You can wish all alone
Until you drown too deep

But do you remember
How to breathe
Wearing an empty heart on your sleeve?

Don't watch the clock too long.

Aftermaths that Bloom

I am stone
But I still break
I am gold
But I still rust

And you can't take away this pain
And you can't break away my chains
If you would steal my heart away
Then I'd have nothing left to say

It's not a game
The sky will rain
And you are nothing but the distance
And you are nothing but the cold

My bones they year away
The blood inside it dries up
And I thought everything was grey
But not the way this light has came

And you have nothing but lies told
And my hearts secrets have been sold
Gave too much, gave too soon
Nothing left but empty room

This has ended a familiar pain
This has eaten at my brain
Spilling deeper stains

But I have found a spiral drain.