Just Breathe

Breathe
and find.
Do not ignore,
See, and look.
Don't glance away.
Walk and run,
Don't sit and wait.
Ask, and answer.
Only you know,
the answers to the questions,
which you ask within your soul.

People will be there for you,
They will guide you,
But you have to be the one
to swim,
You have to be the one,
To fly.

Only you.

Life, a golden ticket...
We're surrounded by stars,
we're living in colour,
so don't make it black and white.
Dont make it.
Just live it.

Breathe, and find.
Look and see.
fall and fly,
live
until
you die.


~~~~absorb all of this life,
everything alive,
see it,
watch it,
don't
try and escape.

accept, and you'll be free.

Loss

Its your loss
you never loved me back
Its your loss
you never cared
Its your loss
you didnt want to be
with someone
who would have
given there life for you,
Loved you until death
I would have been there forever
Constantly by your side
I wanted you
More than anything in the world
And you crushed my heart
You broke my soul
You killed everything inside of me
Until there was nothing at all
I just sank
Submerged
And was unwilling to swim
Unwilling to care
About what happened to me
Because you didnt.
My heart broke
and no one cared to fix it, fix me,
Im scared to try
Im scared to let people in
Im scared to care
Im scared to be loved

And to love again...

Mental Distress

I started falling,
When I thought
that I just caught myself.
I just found a crack
when I thought,
I had fixed myself.
Spiraling inside my head,
Im trying to talk
but still, nothing's been said..
and Im trying to discover
Whats within
I'm trying
Not to ignore it
I'm trying to find the answers
buried through layers in my brain..
Why did i put up all of these walls
when all they've made me, is insane?
I dont know what I want
when I thought..I finally knew it all
Turns out,
I'm still falling.
Turns out
I'm still healing.
Turns out
the past will never fully go away.
Walls just trap you in
and then your the only one
that can't be let out,
Just after you blocked out everyone else
Now there is no one.
I only know
how to be alone.
I only know how to
put myself in the dark.

Where is the exit sign?


I cant get through
these walls ive built,
this door i've locked,
this life
I have created
for myself.
Don't tell me to "spill"
because I will only refuse.
Why should I give you my broken sentences?
When there is nothing
you can do.

A Cry In The Night.

I don't know what to say,
I don't know why I'm panicing.
Over nothing? There must be something.
Im avoiding everything
trying to take over me emotionally,
its buried deep inside of me
and it comes out
into anxiety.

Maybe ive drifted to other stars,
different planets
But i will always have the same soul
Maybe the light has faded from my windows
Maybe all I am now is just a shadow...
But I feel as if i've gotten through
Ive gotten through everything that no one knew.

Why talk when no one asks,
why ask for help
when all you want
is to forget
burry it,
and never bring it back

Everything ahead, is flying past me
with the speed of light
But I dont forget
the time.
I dont forget the memories,
I just don't want the nostalgia.
And if trying to forget is enough
then i will continue to keep it that way,
something is underwater.
And i let it sink below,
while I sit on the surface,
and try to let it go...

Save

Help me
Breathe again
Help me see

I feel like I am walking
With a veil over me

Everything is hazy
and I cant find any light
Where is my time
is there a time

when answers come out
between the years they've been hiding in
ive bled on pages
my broken saddened heart
every time I think im better
I realize my world is still torn apart

I dont know what im asking
or what im trying to find

but im stuck in this hole
and im left behind
I feel like nothing
but a dream being dreamt
none of this is real
There is so much but nothing that I feel.


Escape, where is it?
help me,
help me,
guide me,
search with me,
please.

I will take your hand
if you can show me to the light
cause I am ready to hop on
to a new flight

take me
out of this misery
make me smile
permanently

Heal what has been broken
take the words that I leave unspoken

hold on to me so I dont float away
I dont want to leave I just need
a reason to stay

hold on
let go

i dont know what to know.

Help me. guide me to clear blue.
cause im lost in knowing what to do.

Im reaching, im stretching
im crying, im screaming

where are you
where am I

Help me out of the darkness
Help me leave and say goodbye

The waves crash over,
and I am underneath

and all I ask is for someone
to dive down,
and save me

Down

Death
A secret we dont know about
A place we dont understand
Something we cant quite comprehend

Endings
Are hard to accept
Letting go
Feels hopeless

Faith
Where do I find my faith?
Why cant i just pick it up
and store it in my head, in my heart.

Love
Love?
Love is beautiful, Love is painful
Love is what is needed.

Lonely
Darkness
Sad
Broken
Lost
Lonely

Death
It's over,
It's gone,
It's buried,
Lived,
Breathed,
Walked,
Ran,
Said
and done
Death

The end, of the end, of a beginning?
The end of this world and a start of another?
Beautiful? or Dreadful and terrifying?

Left overs, ashes, sins, pain,
Whats left after death
after this
after the rain.

I keep seeping my mind into the dark
How do you leave
How do you hide from it
It eats me up
it overtakes me
encircles me
and I
am taken down

I am taken down.

Overwhelming Heartache.

I wish I knew what it was about you.
Why you have such a large impact on me
but I am so lost
I cant understand why

We were nothing,
yet every time I look at you
it hurts more than anything
I have ever felt.

I wish I knew why.
I wish I could find answers.
But buried deep inside of me
is all the pain I have tucked away,
locked away.
Because I dont want to feel that again.

Im trying to forget things that I keep remembering.
Your face, your smile, your eyes.
A part of me is still holding on
and borderline part of me has let go.
and I dont understand where I am at
but every time I look back
and see your face
my heart aches
I cant breathe

I dont feel alive
Nothing comes to me.

Rain Away

I enjoy my independence.
Maybe cause it's all I know?
Most people don't like to be alone,
they will do everything they can
to try and avoid it.
When the truth is that you can't.

I get these opportunities
Where I am willing to take a chance,
or even consider being apart of another person's life,
and sharing mine with theirs for a while.
But then...I can't.

It scares me more to be with someone than be without.
I like doing things on my own.
Walking alone, sitting alone.
Loneliness has become my friend.

Loneliness has become something that I need.
I need to be lost to find things, discover.
I need to be alone, to find myself.
This is a process.
I don't know what exactly is the process,
but there is one that I am going through.
Pushing you away, is not what I intend to do.
It's whats best for myself.

I don't like when others walk away,
yet I keep doing the same thing,
I'm sorry if you misunderstood.
If I could explain better, I would.

But I hold up my umbrella,
until these raindrops wash away
Protecting myself,
alone, in my own way.

You all circle me,
and I try but it doesn't feel right.
It just keeps on raining
and all I see is black and white.

These hearts just keep on falling, falling from the sky.
With no one to pick them up and put them back together, why?
We all walk around pretending to be okay,
but that is not the case, we all just run away.

You can't even say your sorry,
so i'm stranded without answers.

And I just keep on walking,
telling everyone else to move out of the way.
I'm sorry that it has to be that way.

I seem to only enjoy sad songs these days.
I seem to dislike Christmas.
It's suppoed to be "the most happiest time of the year."
But I feel like it's all fake.
Sure, I like the idea of Christmas, the snow, the lights, the families.
But it never really feels like a special occasion to me.
Just feels like every other day. A circled routine.

I hate that from when we are very little, we are lied to.
Santa Claus, fairytales. None of that exists.
And it's a matter of knowing what reality is when it hits you one day.
No one told you it was coming, you just get older.
You just grow, and realize life and what you came into.

The lies, they unfold.
And when you see what is real, it hurts.
When you feel what is real, hurts more.

We all want the fairytale.
Maybe that is what we're searching for.
The castle.
The magic.
The love.
The ever after..

We only wake up to find that it's gone.

To Build A Home - The Cinematic Orchestra

Please listen to this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhHKfSFGdUI


I'm in love with it.

Would someone care to classify of broken heart and twisted minds?
So, I can find someone to rely on
and run to them, to them
full speed ahead.

-Misguided Ghosts- Paramore (Brand New Eyes)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z033qOyNyqg