Sadness hits me today. I don't know why. Along my emotions are weeping words I am trying to let out. But i'm not. Maybe this anticipation is affecting me this way. I feel like I don't belong here. I don't belong to sit here, in this place, under this roof. Somewhere else is calling, and I only need to find my way there. I feel alone, and afraid but thats not enough to let go hope makes me stonger than everything fighting against it. I am longing for love. I am longing for someone to make me together. Longing makes you unhappy though. Longing leaves you sadness, as you want what you desire, as you wait for it and hope for it and dont know how or when its coming.

I pray and wish for it. I know with time everything falls into place.
This darkness is waiting for the light to chase it away.
I need to escape from this place.

I am off for dinner with the fam.
More venting to come,
later.