Breaking Silence

Even the sun looks brighter
Even the world looks wider
Your standing right next to me but were miles apart
Concrete is hard to break
And I could feel
You at a distance
Don't stand too close
I still won't look away
Even if you never
Look back

Fell From The Sky

The careless are contagious.
Have you spun and watched the stars?
You turn and land, collapse with a rush.

I need a reminder,
Don't give yourself away.
It hurts too much
When all you want is to be loved.
Maybe I don't love myself.
But I still have the world to offer.

Forget the rage, embrace the pain.
And close your heart if ever your numb.

Losing feeling is like losing blood
Slowly you'll be drained, and destructed.

This is not a book I'm trying to write
There is no story to tell.

But, I think words are all I have to offer. Even if you don't understand them. Half the time I don't.

And I don't need you to either.
As long as you accept it.

Matches We Burn

I miss the blue in your eyes
The way you'd try to compromise
The tone in your voice,
The touch of your skin.

The messages you'd send.

All the lies you spilled.
All the vibrations I felt.
I thought it could be real.
I thought I could finally feel.

Now I lay beneath darkness with rain
Now I lay and dream without trying to be sane.

You know I'm not okay now
You found a place to break in and steal.

It only took a plane and a long awaited kiss.

Now I hold onto all I want and miss.
Miss a love that doesn't exist.

The soul, the chemicals that skip a beat.
Out of balance, take a seat.
So I can shout the pain at you
So I can cry the ache out too.

Just need you in the same room
It's burning down, flamed too soon.

Goodbyes With Angels

There are people who leave your life and your left with filled with a light they brought you. There are people who leave and your left with an emptiness that scorns you.

You were a diamond in a dessert all the same. Reminded me of peace as if it exists between picture frames.

Don't forget your magic, bring it everywhere. I can only thank you for your sunlight when I needed it to be shared.

What is it to be alone, memories are not erased. I have every moment in my head. Words cannot go left unsaid.

I have no plan or time limit. I float atop this mountain. And sit through all the rain. Happiness will come she says. Don't be afraid to love again.

Harm

My skin is marked
With the blade
Of yesterday.
And you can't send me a life jacket or pull me up.

You can't ask me to swim,
Or cling to the rope on your ship.
I wait until my body tires,
So I can drown.

The blood dries up and scabs,
Just a temporary hurt I need to feel.
Just a permanent dull ache inside,
To know what's real.

And when the lines on my arm disappear, I do too.
Pick up the weapon for a pain I once knew.

I wave,
But they don't see
What's happening
Beneath the sea.

The Pendant

It's like this never happened
Just a fog that dissolved
Just the dirt under the ground
Absorbed all the water
And dried out
Your a spirit that's left the room
A phone call that's disconnected
A province away
An earthquake that was yesterday
I've opened up a gate in the cave
For flowers to bloom
A safe escape
And your loneliness will
Eat you away
Darkness where light won't find a way
And I won't ever see you again
And I won't ever leave you again
The feel of your hand on mine
Has evaporated
Just a memory
Driven through your dust
Just a soundtrack that played lust
I sit and watch the sun rise now
A place you don't belong
You'll never reach my strings again
I've detached and flown away

Sleepless

Took my time
And ran with it
I sit now it's too hard to stand
A game all to familiar
Yet somehow you won
And I'm not an object
To be thrown away
Somewhere there's light
Someday you'll be okay
Don't convince yourself you're scared
The voice in your head is guidance
This time I'll run without stopping
No boundaries left
No entries left unlocked
I'll crawl into my own escape
I'll fly into a lonely place
Cause lies have turned me
Ice cold
Secrets held that no one knows
You stole my trust and dissipated
No longer existent
All false words, persistent
Time to build a roof and cave
No more hope for the strong and brave

All The Unfaithful

And all the flowers
Blown away,
And all lost words,
Dissolve, away

I can't use a broken
Useless mirage
Tangled up
And bound to fall

I'll make my way across
The world, without a wall

You disappeared when it was time to catch me
Your just a shadow, I couldn't see

And all the rain will wash you out
Down the drain now, down the doubt.

To Whom It May Concern

I just wanted to take the time to thank you for your ignorance.
I wanted to thank you for taking my time spent on you for absolutely no purpose at all.

You told me I was wanted,
Now I know I'm not.

I was entertainment to your boredom.
And you were just another bullet to my heart.

Thank you for your time,
Just know I have resigned.

The Feeling

What is it to fall
When you can fly?
I have the world beneath my feet
And you have a hand to hold.
But I'd rather have the world.
Your happiness depends
On another soul
And mine is just staring at the sky

Why do we crave another?
Why do we create songs?
All I want are airplanes and nature
Insanity and discovery
Loneliness that wraps around me
And sleeps with me at night.

And this is all I could ever have,
And this is all that I ever am.

The Only One

I guess your tucked somewhere
Beneath the stars
I made a wish
It became ours

But now the dark has started to fall
And I just needed you wrapped around
I just needed to be found

You were temporary
But memories won't erase
No matter how long you disappear

Once in a blue moon
But still, I'll always be here

Where Minds Go

Sometimes
I try to define insanity.

Perhaps it's just a loss of identification.
Not the identification you keep in your wallet though.

Perhaps it's a thought, perhaps it's a goal. Perhaps just a state of mind.

Perhaps we don't need to define every existing thing. Why is human nature so keen on finding meaning, when it's possible we're not significant.

One hundred thousand universes spin
And we stir up wars outside and within

Try to watch the sun rise now,
Maybe it's been too long
Since you last slept.

Or is this just a dream?

Full Moon

I couldn't tell you
What I'm going through

But I feel a tide that twists inside
I feel a pain that's tucked aside

Just rain that hits the roof and dries
Just sun that scopes the horizon
Then dives

A search that runs across the plains
A clock that ticks with multiplying graves

The world shivers
And I stand still

A feeling I've only barely knew
And I can't explain the sky
I can't tell the memories why

A box thats packed but still undone
A stitch that's sewn but still to run

Breaking in every sense and sword
I'll clash against the grains I own
Until the show completes what's grown

The hurting, lost and stolen break
The growing, healing, silent sake.

Sitting in the constant mode,
Brain and heart run, eyes closed.

The Hole In Hearts, The Space Between Sheets

You cast a hook inside my light
And drained the darkness
In my sight

Clasped your fist around my heart
Alone, I thought I'd fall apart

Every distraction
Reminds me
How distracted I wish to be

I need the distance a little more closer
Holding on
Falling faster

A sea that aches with every wave
A rock that cracks
With every cave

I can't play a game
Here ignorance belongs

Only the world can hear me now
Just echos from my hollow scream
Just whispers in my empty heart

Moving, only in space I dream
A lonely shadow casts amongst a moon beam

And the smoke dissipates in the wind
And the hope broke in sorrowed sin

This song will always be dedicated to you.