Arrogance and Carelessness

Seriously?

You think you have all the control in your hands.
But you have nothing.
You have no one.

And I swear, you never will.

After the Rain

And every time you look past the dark,
There will be a glitter in the air.

And every time you remember how to smile,
There will be eyes that are cleared.

And every time you hold your breath,
Just look before you drown.

'Cause you can change your life at any moment.
You can turn it all around.

Don't give up, just because you feel pain,
Remember it will leave, it will fade away.

Fight for your dreams, and cut away your fears.
So where will you go once the rain disappears?

Without A Heart

I thought I lost, and then I remembered, you did.

I held myself up, I held myself back. I could have given myself away, I could have let myself be as worthless as you made me feel. I stayed strong, you couldn't break through. And you believed that you could. How can you expect to take everything away from a person when you have absolutely nothing to give.

You don't have the ability to steal anybody's heart, because in the end it will be yours that breaks.

Take a look at the world and see how full it is, and just how empty you are. You will never measure up to any amount of love because you were born without a heart.

I Am Not the Chosen One

"He hurt you, didn't he?"

I turned away and replied "No."

Because he didn't hurt me,

He killed me.

Soul Search

And every cut you scar me with,
Just numbs me to the core.

Everything like shattered glass, I've felt it all before.
And if you try to take my hand,
Just watch for it to break.

'Cause everything you steal from me,
I can't continue to replace.

I'll stay lost behind these walls,
You won't see me if I fall.

The time keeps moving, Im feeling small.

Try to take me away.
Try and steal, but i'm afraid.
You have no words left to say.

You can't take what you break.
You can't take what you took.

Like a heart
continues to beat.
Like the soul in my body, two things that continue to meet.

And if I could disappear,
I would want to be some place so far away from here.
So far away from here.

Don't try to look in my eyes.
Don't try to wipe back my tears.

This isn't your place.
You got no right to leave me,
With fear.

So what did you do to me?
Why did you leave me here?

Underneath it All

Breakdown. I can’t find. I can’t feel. Anything.

Hit with sharp knives, things that have been affecting you subconsciously. 

And you just want to feel alright. But that feeling isn’t there anymore. 

Every smile you see, every laugh you hear, I have forced out of me. 

And you believe it all.

Break Me

You don’t love. 

You only say you do.

You only pretend. 

And I wonder how you can do that to a person,

A person who would die for you.

You Don't Stand A Chance

You had no place to call me and ask me what was wrong. It’s not about you. 

You just wish it was.

.

Skipping Beats

I am everywhere.
I am pieces.
I am air.
I am dark and light.
I am sun and sky.
I am wind and warmth.

My heart beats, my lungs expand.

My mind changes everything, everyday.
Sometimes I forget who and where I am.
Other days I know exactly what this is.
Exactly what I want.

But today I woke up to feel like I am disappearing.
Losing. Giving up hope.
Falling.

Waiting.
To hit the bottom, and crash.

Crash into more pieces,
multiples of millions.

Of Earth and sand and traveling particles.
To reach space, and stars and all countries of the world.

Because these places are lacking me, and I am lacking them.
Lacking love, and discovery and life in other universes.

I'm trying to hold on,
But I feel like I am being pulled into another place,
On the other side.

Somewhere else wants or needs me,
And I don't want to be here anymore.

I just want to feel alive,
Feel okay.

Feel whatever it is I can't anymore.

I think that I've lost my heart.
I think my chest is filled with sadness,
And now all that I am... is incapable of breathing.

The Saving Stars

Don't get lost,
Don't turn around.

The stars are here
to save you now.

Hold on to the light they shine,
I can see what's left in your eyes.

And I know you're going somewhere,
So don't let the dark take you away.

The night will kiss you with sweet dreams,
Letting you know that everything will be okay.

The Pretentious

The secrets that are eating away at our insides,

The smiles we use to look happy when really we're sad, 

The cover-up's, and the masks to hide just who we are..

Make us different, and interesting. 

Then I think that it would be better if these things came out,

instead of letting them tear you to pieces.

Cheers

I know I tried my best.

It wasn't what you wanted.

I don't have to wait for someone

who lost the ability to make me happy.

To make me smile.

Why should I stick around just to make you laugh?

You aren't worth my time,

When I know that all you are able to do, is waste it.

I'd rather be alone.

It seems too hard to find what you're searching for.

Almost hopeless or impossible.

Here's to another broken heart, and many more to come.

The Reminder

When you forget that life is real, take a breath and remind yourself of this existence. You are alive in life’s every moment, and every second counts for something.

A Breath To Take

Take a breath of the silence.
Don't forget to feel.
Feel everything.
Feel the pain in your heart,
Feel the air in your lungs.

Feel the beauty of life, instead of just seeing it.
Feel the emotion in other people.
And recognize their hurt.

Be aware. Be alive.
And don't stop to panic.

Here we are, so take it.
Live it, explore the world.
If that will make you smile,
If that will be everything
you can imagine is real.

The Search for Guidance

Reassure me with encouraging words that I have the ability of doing this.
 Sometimes I feel like I'll just stop breathing.
Give me guidance to fight the panic.
I've forgotten why I'm here.

Dust

I'd rather have the silence.
Then your strung out old fake words.
I'm tired of looking through dust.

Tired of looking at all.

If you want me then I can try to understand,
But don't act like you do,
and then suddenly walk away.
As if nothing happened.
As if you don't even know me.

I'd rather be alone,
Than share my secrets.
Than turn to your worthless sympathy.

You were never worth a conversation.
You were never worth an introduction.
You were never worth becoming a person to me.

Alien

The sun is lit and in it's light
I am swallowed.
I forget where I am.
Absorbed in the beauty that is forgotten in the world.

You start to feel like an alien when you notice things people no longer see.

And sometimes I feel that I am not alive...

All this is just a dream.

In the Blink of an Eye

I thought when I read that you were giving people a chance, that included me.

I guess I was wrong. You proved it to be wrong.

You took me out, you said things and made me smile.
We stayed up all night to speak to each other.

And now there is someone else.

I no longer exist to you.

Giving...up.

My heart is breaking. Every guy I have ever admitted to liking, never returns the feelings. And the most recent guy just shut down a chance, when it very well had the potential for us to spark. I give up. I’m seriously done. All guys do, is use you and disappoint you. And i’m so tired of hurting. My heart belongs to me, and no one can have it anymore.

The Desert We Lived In

You felt unloved by me,
I felt unloved by you.

A dehydrated desert waits for rain.

Our storm just never came.

The whole thing just crumbled,
and tore apart.

A Short Piece of Mind Drifting

I want love to come and carry me away into the sky, into the wind, out of this silent atmosphere.

Disappearing Wishes

Water running over rocks,
Like drowning souls inside a stream.

Bleeding water through my veins,

Like ice melting through broken seams.

Dreams fading,

Over transformations left at failure.

Wings dying,

When hope gave up believing in a saviour.

And they all rain down together,
Circling from sky to water.

Everything below looks up,
Everything above, smiling down.

Forgive, don't forget.

It wasn't you who upset me. You really want to know what I'm upset about? I can't remember the last time I was happy. The last time I was happy, I was living life and loving it, learning and realizing myself the way I never had before. I wasn't ready for a relationship but I agreed to put myself in that position when I answered "yes." to establishing one with you. I had just found my happiness and soon after that, misery stole  me back. You took away my fucking happiness. I'm not okay with myself when I look back and realize that happiness could have lasted longer. I ignored my instincts, the warning signs by trying to believe I'd be missing out on a great opportunity if I didn't take it. But it ended. I wasn't what you wanted. I gave it my best. It wasn't enough for you. And now I have to start all over again. You wasted my time, and I let you. I was consistently waiting for you, always let down and disappointed. But I was still the one who was willing to fight. You just let me go like it was nothing, like it was so easy. Do you feel pain?

You cut me out of your life and now I'm here again. And it isn't fair. I don't deserve this. You definitely never deserved me. I understand that. It's unfortunate I am even experiencing these feelings when you have already been seen prancing around other girls...Did I really mean nothing to you, at all? Am I really that worthless?

The answer is no, I'm not. You had no right to let me feel that way. No right..At all. Who do you think you are? That is something I'll never know. You deserve the misery in your life, and not having time for anyone. You don't deserve anything. I would never say such a thing. About anyone. But I realized I hate you. I try not to, but I do. And I will not apologize for it. You will never find someone like me. You lost your grip and I'm glad you let go. Because I notice so much more. And I bet you don't notice a thing at all. You once told me you were heartless... I should have believed you.

Insomnia

I'm scared to sleep. You know what I think of? Dying. I think of death. And i'm scared to fall asleep. The part I hate the most is the laying in the dark. I panic, because I think of how much I would rather see or have a light on. If I die in my sleep, I'm afraid I'll be in the dark for eternity. I hate the dark and I'm scared to sleep. Because I just want to live and be awake as much as I am alive. If that means being up waiting for the sun, whether it's sunrise, or sunset, I'm thinking of trying that. I'm so afraid to fall asleep and think I may not make it to another beautiful morning. Crazy isn't it?

The dark is the last thing I'd want to see before I die.