Process

Today I told her,
to have hope.
To have faith.

I once read
"Life without hope, is no life at all."

I believe in that.
Hope gives us the courage we need to carry on
when we feel we have no courage left.
And faith gives us the ability to believe and have hope.

All I know is
You can't be desperate, you can't just expect
that things will happen how you want them too..
you cannot be impatient
Everything comes with time,
and with patience.


They will come, as time comes.

I encourage you,
to hold on.

In the end, this waiting will be worth it.

In the end this will be no wait

at all.

.

You will have your magic.

.

Circle

Ive always believed that
"Everything happens for a reason."
But then, you search and search for
answers, search for the reasons,
ask questions...and when you give up
you realize

There are no answers,
And the reasons don't exist.

Life is an answerless circle.

.

Still

I dont know
if I will ever
see you again

and I dont know if I will regret
keeping words unspoken

suffering in silence.

but one day
I might know

one day
I could know

for now..I must go.
As you go.

Eventless times are nothing,
the duration is nothing.
Waiting.

But
life happens,
events occur.
and people, well they walk in.

It's time to escape
from the silence
I've suffered in

life awaits,
time moves
everything,
everyone
moves...

and yet,

I can't stop standing there

watching.



*

Live..

Asking for help,
but in silence i drown.
I cant be helped,
and i wont do
what i want to do.
i cant help myself.
i only hurt myself,
and let myself be hurt.

Trapped in your mind is all that you know,
outside of that lives so much possibility.

And i still wont take these chances,
and i still cant make up my mind.

where to go from here?
what left to say?

Ignorance feeds frustration,
confusuion, loneliness, and sadness
these just dont go away.
all the while you stumble
no matter where you go.
Hiding in the dark,
behind the comforts in which you know.

Learn what you're unaware of.
Try everything your afraid of.

dive into all you dream of.

take hold of your wishes,
grant them to come true.

stop losing what you dont want to lose
stop holding on if your not willing to
chase after what you desire.

one chance.
one life.
one person.

take advantage,
accept,
explore.


...be alive.

I Believe...

I believe in focusing on goals, and being determined to make your dreams come true. I believe that keeping an open mind about things can make you always see the positive side. I believe that there is a reason for everything. I believe that there is much more to life than what is just seen, and what we just know. People will do things to hurt you or betray you, from that you may learn not to trust. You put up all these walls and barriers that affect you from doing other things, because it reflects back to what made you how you are, back to what made you put up all the guards in the first place. But from all that you also become an even stronger person. I have learned not to dwell. Life is too short. If you want something, do it without questioning or thinking things through. In the end what is most important is that you achieved what you wanted to do. I believe in God, and that the creator has created that all that is here. I believe in leaving things in the past and looking forward, so that you always have something to achieve and look forward to. I believe in taking opportunities and taking chances. I believe that we all have destiny and purpose. I believe that life is a chance to do everything we want to achieve, and it isn’t a matter of what others think. I believe in soul mates and that love is something that everybody has and will always strive for. I feel that love is the only emotion that can fight away all darkness and sense of loneliness. I believe in washing away all barriers and things that hold you back because there is so much to go towards. Life is here for us to fulfill and to live. I believe in living it and finding something worth smiling about every single day.

Fly

Dig down deep. Realize what your doing this for. See the good. See only the good.It's not for forever. It will end. Like a seed that grows, push through the surface.Like your rising underwater, swim to the surface. Like your being chased after,dont give up. Run. Like an empty sky, have hope and wait for the sun.You feel your feet at the edge of the cliff, and your only looking down,surrounding your mind with the hatred and worry, this won't take all your time.Look up, and try to rise. Don't dive down. Look up, and realize you don'talways have to fall, you can fly. Turn and forgive yourself for all the past mistakes. Shake your hand and smile, life is what you make it.Laugh out loud and without jumping you'll see that you can fly,off the cliff and over mountains, you made it to the sky...

My sister's EP is finally completed, mastered and all:

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enjoy.

It's My Life..

I am not usually unrealistic.
People may take it as negativity.
but its not, im just being realistic,
saying the truth.

But when it comes to
"what do you want to do after high school?"
I just want to travel and write. write and travel.
because those are things that I love.
And I think traveling is one of those things
where you have to go when you have the time.
and i feel like nows my time.
Like my life is just beginning and
I can finally leave whats left behind me.

I could not be satisfied with going one place,
I want to go everywhere
I want to see everything, experience everything.
I feel like this would give me more to write about,
it would be life changing to have a year full of travels.
Sometimes it feels like I am just trapped in a bubble.
I cant get out of it, its constantly around me.
Routine begins to feel like I am reliving yesterday
over and over. That frustrates me.

I like change, just not sudden change.
I can adapt, in time.
Anything can happen in time.
Don't tell me that my decision to
go off and travel isnt a good thing.

Don't tell me I won't go back.
You don't know me.
I am determined enough to go to school
I enjoy learning and I know what I want to do.

So let me have my time.
Figure myself out, figure life out.
I live with no regrets.
This will possibly be the best year yet.

take flight

I just want to dissapear to a place
no one knows exists.
A place no one could ever find me
I just want to leave.

When one thing
breaks your world apart,
you start falling apart.
Nothing matters.
You dont care.
I dont care.

Who belongs here, anyway?
I sure as hell don't.
What are we doing here, anyway?
No one really knows.

dissapear to have
clarity
dissapear to believe
there is more
than here
there is more
than what surrounds me
every
single
day

Who belongs here anyway

holding

I enjoy people,
Observing and socializing.
I can make friends and get along with anyone, really.
But theres always that one person that makes
everything seem so complicated.
That makes saying "hello" seem like such
a difficult task.

Everytime I get the opportunity,
I let it pass me by.

One day, this will all be gone,
I won't get a chance ever again.
But still,
I let it go, let you go.
But im holding onto that.

It has hurt for too long.
And all this is, is nothingness.
How can nothingness exist
if nothing is non-existant?

I cant make it go away.
Its just a gap.
I cant make it go away.

let go. let go. let go.

I just keep holding on.

Eveything I want to say,
i have it in my head.
And then it dissapears.
My words are broken lines.

Numb.

The pain has become numb.

let go. let go. let go.

I just keep holding.