holding

I enjoy people,
Observing and socializing.
I can make friends and get along with anyone, really.
But theres always that one person that makes
everything seem so complicated.
That makes saying "hello" seem like such
a difficult task.

Everytime I get the opportunity,
I let it pass me by.

One day, this will all be gone,
I won't get a chance ever again.
But still,
I let it go, let you go.
But im holding onto that.

It has hurt for too long.
And all this is, is nothingness.
How can nothingness exist
if nothing is non-existant?

I cant make it go away.
Its just a gap.
I cant make it go away.

let go. let go. let go.

I just keep holding on.

Eveything I want to say,
i have it in my head.
And then it dissapears.
My words are broken lines.

Numb.

The pain has become numb.

let go. let go. let go.

I just keep holding.