Fear

Do you ever get a weird feeling inside? And you don't know what it is. But it's not something good. And it aches. But it's dull. And you don't want to acknowledge it? But you should.

Is it possible to be overly courageous and do you think having such a quality can destroy some parts of you? Or maybe all of you.

And have you ever experienced an unbearable emotion, but time goes by and then one day it hits you. Like maybe, you never really felt what you were feeling at the time you were feeling it. But remembering it now makes it real.

Fear isn't real but I fear, fully. I fear fear. I fear things that don't exist. I fear scenarios I make up in my mind. I fear my nightmares.

Because when I feel fear, it feels as if I'm about to die. Fear isn't real, I've heard. But it's realest thing in my life.

A Higher Consciousness

As I inhaled, the air swam into my lungs filling the spaces beside my heart. It made me feel lighter, almost free. Like petals falling off of a flower, letting go of the bud they once held onto.

I realized there are two worlds out here. The one we look at, eyes wide open. But there is a whole underground tunnel when you close your eyes. Inside your mind. It will guide you to places where colors can fly, where sky hangs in shades of pink, and people are not people. But rather floating, glittering miracles sitting in a light you can't find in reality. To get here you must be connected. You must believe. There is a gateway from the crown-at the top- of your head which extends into the Universe. Grab my hand, I'll take you.

This is no Peter Pan story, where a boy filled with dreams will come through your window and take you to Neverland. But I imagine that story could have came from the same place I'm talking about. Maybe I should ask the author.

Outsiders

What if the Earth was a snow globe,
And the person who picked it up
To shake it,
Caused earth quakes,
Caused movement.

Then set us down,
To watch it snow
And come to stillness.

Wondering what it would be like
To be inside. As if it were real life.

The world looks big to us,
But our world looks small
To them.

Two Souls

Yesterday you walked by me,
And dropped your heart on the floor.

I wish I could give it back to you.

A Lotus Rises

The fatigue
Is ever lasting.
I thought the same about darkness,
Until then came light.

I have placed myself
Along elements
Earth, air, water, fire.
Back to the roots,
Feel grounded.
Back to the connection
Feel one. All is one.

And when your heart is racing
Just close your eyes and send
A trusting thought
Into the universe.

Light a candle and swim,
Keep your gaze on the flame.

It dances and wakes up the dark,
Comforts, and warms your aching bones.
Sit and stay a while,
Breathe and kiss your solid wounds.