I have been so irritable this past week I dont know why. Everything is annoying me, including people and i don't want to be surrounded by any one person. I just want space and loneliness. I want to be alone with my emotions because I refuse to expose them, what's going on in my life and how it makes me feel. I had to work today and I felt like yelling at every customer that walked in, and everyone who was bossing me around. Last night everything I supressed flowed out of my like a stream. And now I feel like I am still cooling off. Unsure of if i feel okay, and stable enough to speak or be around others.

I had a great conversation with my best friend Monica, again today. She kind of inspired hope for me, from her past experience which was similar to the one I was telling her about. I have never had a friend like Monica before. She is the only person I find I can open myself up to, and trust. I dont know why but i believe everyone comes into our lives for a reason. and she just happens to be one of those rare people that comes around, the rare type of person that is worth talking and spending time with..someone you wouldnt just stop being friends with because you dont find it often. So im holding on to only few of those people in my life.

Im just really happy I can say I have a friend that cares. That gives me advice that is meaningful to me. Im glad I can talk to her and feel someone understands me.

Thank you Monica.

I look forward to the future, and how much further our friendship continues and everything it goes through.