Friday, November 9, 2012

The Anxious Will Understand

The world turns
My lungs contract
Holding onto life
Keeping it in tact

Cause its so easy
For me to end
As fast as light travels
As quick as eyes blink
And I could be gone

Hold on so tight
It feels like I cannot breathe
Everything shuts down
And the universe is surrounding me

Decisions circle and cave me in
Another bruise to remind me
The mess I'm in

Only in my head
Always there instead
I need to crawl out
Of this world

But I am endless and alone
Need to swim
Out of this trench
But I'm sinking
Turning to stone

All the "what if's" play on repeat
In my mind, this is defeat
Cause I can't be where
Things are real
Lost in space
My eyes peel

Launched away
Isolated from everyone
Who cares
Unknown places
And deluded stares

This is what I've done to forget
Who I am
Flew myself so far away
On my own, I ran

And now I try to sleep
But all I feel is fear
Someone, rescue me from myself
I have broken free from anyone else

I don't deserve to cry and plead
I've left the ones who carried me
No wonder the ones I love
Leave me

Effortlessly alone
I'm the only one to blame
Can I forgive myself?
So many secrets, so much shame.

Time is too fast now
I cannot push these breaks
I am so far gone
I rush around
With no escape.

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