A Butterfly's Broken Heart

The rush in your head,
Holds the spell on your body.

You don't want me,
Yet you won't let me go.

Stop chasing something you don't want to receive.
You've put me in a jar, and I'm waiting for oxygen.

Deprived of purpose and direction.
Suffocating on loss and overprotection.

My wings will break, the glass will shatter.
I will escape the hurt that matters.

You've poisoned me, and abandoned your efforts.

I will transform once more, my friend.
A second chance won't be back again.

You've drained me of my aspirations,
Wounded at a halted station.

But flying is the gift I was born to,
You can't cut off my wings if you won't use them.

The universe wants me back.

Cleaning Dishes

When all he does is sell his sins,
You know you have been warned.

When all he does is walk away,
You know you have been told.

When he can't give you what you want,
You know how it will end.

When you want to stick around
For something that is just nothing,
That is your request to get burned.

And all the stars are shining, but you've got your eyes on one.
When everything is fading, it's time to start running.

Find the sun now, find the sun.

Warning Labels

Foaming from your mouth,
Words you've only seized upon.

And to you this life's a game,
Making choices to become ashamed.

Never for what you live for,
Just what your living by.

You've lost the sign you've been searching for,
A storm come June to keep adding more.

And our pain is just unaffected, pasts wrecked it.

Clinging to the lightning, bound to strike.
The thunder has arrived. 

Humanity's Insanity

I've never seen such a place so dull,

Lamp light dimmed, and curtains low.

Breathe in smoke, to cough out tears,

Wrecks of hazard through these years.

Naked, cold to feel the save,

When I lost courage I learned about the brave.

And everything is a stepping stone from here to outer space.

Drink slow, feel the motion of an intoxicated, decaying race.

For Nipun

Above the clouds,
I lay in light.

A hand held to make everything right.
A soul which beams as bright as the moon,
All darkness erases and colours in bloom.

Staring in the scary space,
I close the lid, do not retrace.

Every inch melted underground
Laughter echoes in surround sound.

Spring has just begun,
The birds fly overhead.

And I may join their movement
As I glare past their shadows,
On glittering, infinite pavement.

Trainwreck

Today a train ran through me.
All letters chose to face backwards.
All voices, screaming.

All smiles faded.
All flesh, broken and bleeding.

Nothing but fire to burn remains.
The tear in my shirt, ripped.
The bullet in my heart, shot.

Full speed crashes without breaks,
Lungs without air.

Silent Sleeper

Never wanted nothing more
Than to be loved.

I tried to be everything you need.

All it was for nothing.
All I am is nothing.

And it plays on repeat.
Everyone pass my heart, take a shot at me.

I can't wait till I'm gone.
The pain I almost cannot feel - anymore.

Like intravenous, all nerves sedated.
I will sleep through heartbreak with the blinds down.


Goodbye sunlight.
I don't know when I'll see you again.

Immobile

I never thought it was possible to be more broken.

Sinking never ends, never hit a bottom.

Lower and lower I'll drown now.

No one to rescue my broken bones.

Breathing disabled.

No surface, just ice.

An empty place for hearts to fall,
You'd never guess they're broken.

Robot Eyes

The hardest you fell,
From the highest story,
Of the tallest building,
Of the biggest city,
On the busiest streets.

You know rain is coming,
When there's blood on your hands.

You put yourself to sleep,
Swallowed prescriptions to boss your molecules.

Each and every one.
No one knows what part of you is real anymore.

Who told you to jump?
The guy at the end?
Your imagination
Of the capsule you call your friend.

And you won't sleep tonight,
Cause you forget that you're alive.

These lights couldn't be anymore blinding,
But still you can't see.

A tear hits the bottom of the building.
Pavement absorbing my cries.

You landed amongst traffic...

I would have caught you in my arms.

The Rusted Apparatus

Why suppose your wanted?
All I do is give.

And the takers use the givers.
And the givers take the heartbreak.

And the givers accept the broken.


Some machine's breakdown.
Others don't start back up again.

Failing at Quitting

Lowered to your degree,

Given away. Entirety. Everything.

Effort, after effort, and there is still no return.

Accepted your silence, rebelled against protection.

I was never good at goodbyes,

Here is the approach.

Magic potion, stealing heartbeats.

Vital signs created to prove that we're alive.

No matter what they tell you, it doesn't feel that way inside.

The Lost Traveller

I sent a kite into the air,
It would be my warning sign.

Rushing waves and rapids flow beneath the cliff...
From afar I run

This is the dive.
The escape.
The goodbye.
Off of your island
I must swim back to mine.

Breathing Inanimate

Like a scented lotion lathered on my skin,

Absorbed, inhaled and taken in.

Refuse to spit out,

Caressed and dissolving beneath you.

With your eyes closed.

I'll be the one to stare.

Trace my fingers around your lips.

Wake with a kiss.

Will there ever be a time,

Where you link a chain?

Link our hearts, combine.

I am nothing else but the stone by your side.

Blending with Black

You push my black with your coloured painted palette 

I'd rather be the paper than the painter.

Slick strokes created the mirage of a bond once held together by a frame.

No longer a picture perfect portrait.

Friends biologically formed.

And drifting,

Don't let my solitude break your heart.

I like to stay closed while you blossom next to me.

Watch the world, I will watch you capture it.

But inside my closed petals, there is another I have made my own.

Hospice of Archaism

A script misunderstood,
Scraping at the pain you cannot erase.

The paint you chose is prevented to chip.
Hush your voice, and purple scarred lip.

I tied a rope to each our hands
A desire you once did not understand.

It's getting cold when you're not around.
And death screams when it haunts me with sound.

I stole a branch no longer alive,
In the treetops it's easier to leap than dive.

And no other will find us here,
In our own polluted atmosphere.

Doormat Lover

The people who want to take chances
Always end up with the people who aren't willing to take them.

Through a dusted mirror of a narrow hallway
She recognizes her mysterious reflection
And wonders about the world.

Music pulls on her heart strings,
And words on a page are like oxygen to her lungs.

The people who fight fear,
Always end up with the people who are defeated by fear.

No common ground has been discovered,
And we are running out of seas.

Droughts progress, the days are running out of weeks.

And a pilot can only stay awake for so long,
And a plane can only fly it's amount of fuel, before ground.

Until the crash, time will pass.
The girl in the mirror will never see clearer
Than the dust on a shard of glass.

The Bricks We're Made Of

People are just shadows,

Silhouettes in the dark of a lamp lit room.

We don't really see anything but the wall we're cast on.

Our sudden movements, drawing motions like mere wind.

And everything that is golden is always buried in the last box.

Maybe that's why so many people create their own and fill it with jewellery. 

We hear about stories of the rainbow, and magic fairies from another land.

And we always believe or cling to the hope without the existence of it's presence.

If we could break down the wall,

Maybe we could land amongst another planet.

If we could break down the wall,

Maybe we could escape our sullen shadows.

Break away with the switch of a light, and enter a valley of Eden.

Subterranean

Scratching it's way out.

Your beauty is your charm.

One finger to touch,

Hits the snooze for the alarm.

Pushing through a capsule,

A seed that wants the sky.

I see it both ways, now.

And underground will always

Be our hiding place.

The heat on the surface 

Is the reminder of the sun.

Stitched to Air

It's just the disease talking.
But you know it's been outlived.

Today you told me your heart asked you where I am.

I've been here the entire time.

A pillow feels best when shared.

Spoons

Burn for more,

One fire is not enough.

One pain extending.

Fear ignores the cure.

I will follow the tide.

Ride your wave, back to shore.

Curse of the Sky

All this rain,
For all this love
You refuse to give away.

A permanent rain cloud,
Inescapably pending.

There's a thunder waiting beneath the surface.

Ignorance is not an option.

A warning sign heard from miles away.
Will break the strings you made today.

Innocence - getting further away.

Dungeon Light

Our bodies tousled,
Exchanging body heat.
Pace quickening,
Slide of your grip.

Pinned to your cradle.
Cage me in, there is nothing better outdoors.

Against your expiration,
Is a pleasure creating completion.

Magnetic forces, grind. Prepare to release.

Your bones to be crushed, break inside my hand.

We have awoken in the company of midnights memory.
Filling gaps and spaces, silk building into our skin.
Absorbing the cells of one another,
It ends in cymbals thrashing.

It's time to press the repeat button, darling.

The Angels Are Crying

Every feeling crossed out
Lashed against your skin.

Marked, red and bruised.
My ghosts you've tried to see through.

But I've hidden under covers,
Where no oxygen is left to breathe.
Tripping through a tunnel,
Damp and out of ease.

I'm sorry if you're sorry,
But I don't need a reason to cry.
I'm sorry if you love me,
And answers are impossible for you to give away...

"Be with me," is all I begged,
Your silence in response drained my blood.

Colliders

The lonely hallway waits,
The two loves exchange embrace.

Upon a trail of sparkled stars,
A distance which we once called ours,
And so it's gone away.

A hello that unravelled,
Into hopeless romance and glittering eyes,
We dreamt of a land becoming our own escape.

And no one else can reach us in our sand castled towns,
These streets are ours to sweep.

Each grain marks the defeat,
of the heart I long to keep.

Nostalgia Avenue

The tears on your pillow case,
Have evaporated.

That's all you have left,
Of a night left in pitch black.

Left in awe
Of the final event
You never called.

An expectation you didn't hold.
I am the pilot flying the chambers of my own heart..

Over distant, sparkling
And far away lands.

In all of that I cannot grasp
An understanding
For why you choose not love,
But fear.

Tonight You Said Goodbye

I tore myself open for you,
You crawled right in.

No caution. No whispers.
Warning signs ignored.

Nausea now taking up my organs,
Heaving the regret you gave me.
The regret I let happen, all alone.

This sickness will eat me alive now,
I bid you leave.

Leave me.
It's easier to imagine you never existed.
A story I just read in a book.
I will bury it in the deepest, darkest shelf.

Never return to a vanishing soul,
That will not fight
For the heart you have already given.

The Observation Place

The addiction
Of change.

Has caused me to rebel, lie, hide.

And It's better to live without regrets.
Wake up every morning, look in the mirror.
And forgive yourself.

Exploration, I find, I create.
The addiction, is what has made me.

Delusion is a drug.
Walk into walls.
Never want to be without being affected.

Emerge in disaster. Live in greyscale.
And the world will remind you of the colours all it's own.

The Infinite Climb

Grow with me against a wall.
Tangle up our vines, twisted - entwined.

Because I can't think of anything I want more
Than the surface of you against my screaming, rapid pulse.

And don't leave my side,
No other vine can replace the way
Yours has shaped mine.

Diagnosis: Lascivious

Trigger, bullets speed
Yellow flashes of light.
Sunbeam slash,
Struck like golden lightning.

Your spirit burns
And out of the wound,
Fly out empty whistled tunes.

Made of life
That is not my own.

Combine your blood

With mine.

Lust To Pieces

I cannot respire.
With you consuming my thought filled mind.
A flood of you.
A chemical imbalance.

You. You. You.

I have dissolved. 

Shudder

A superpower I need to believe.
Suck your shadows out,
Make you see.

Allowing your past to follow you,
Please say goodbye now.
Say goodbye.

If you would just glance in your rearview mirror,
Notice those skies were grey.

And that you have entered clear blue ones,
Standing under my daylight.

And all you want to do is drive.
Drive away.

Stolen in Months of May

My heart chokes on itself,
I spit blood.

Coughing out the poison I swallowed in your kiss.
I am infected, infested, addicted.
I need your hands in mine.

Lay here with me forever,
We don't need to make a sound.

Lay. Existing only in this darkness.

Sweep the pain away.
You touch my skin, you remove me.
Completely.

Out of my encased shell, holding my soul.
I'll slip into your chest now.

And I'm not like the others,
No I landed here, a fallen comet.
From above, steal me.
Quiet. Our lips magnetic.

All I asked for are countless more moments,
As soft as our colliding skin.

I beg for more days.
I scream for you.

I will wait an eternity.
If time is needed to heal your wounds.

I'll be here, when they close.
Heal. Quench.

Breathe. Again.

Philosopher's Floor

Crowd collapse,
Pink lace, and skin desired.

The hammock that you've chosen
Collapsed into the ocean.

Too late to save,
Your lungs gave away.

Oxygen creating
Air on the surface.

And that was the last of your living.

And we still infect these waters..

Meteor Madness

Picking apart my skin,
The moon is on the rise.

Goodbye sunlight,
Till dawn.

Shower of debris,
Starlight magic collapses our surroundings.

I only fantasize of the life we don't belong to.

Give me a minute, for I must inhale the sight of the stars.

Off The Map

This world was indeed far beyond our own.
A place of a whole other entity.

Outside of our nature and belonging.
Forests of purple and skies painted in multi colour.

Rage exhausted to it's retire.
An enchantment of graceful secrets.

A hiding no one ever knew.
We have never been told.

We can join winged creatures and soar without harm,
We can breathe without concern.

Illness is extinct.
Trees immortal.

Maybe it was only in an exuberant mind.
"It is time to wake up," that is the last I can remember. 

Obsolete and Incomplete

Invisible aura

In your presence.

Always giving, never the receiver.

Betrayed, deceived. 

You misunderstood the equation presented.

I unfolded a truth requiring difficulty to admit.

The least you could do, is close your arms around mine.

And breathe. Breathe me in.

Invisible.

Alright with that now.

Used to being the lingering ghost,

And I thank you for forcing me out your door.

(Sarcasm makes a better lover.)

Shut Down

Cringing by the sound of your voices,
Eyes all on me.
Judged.

I can worry about myself.
I need space, air.

I need loneliness, isolate.

Your criticism isn't going to change me,
Or make me move faster.

Stop staring, judging, whispering.
Start asking, talking, trying.

It makes me happy to displease you,
It disgusts me that your happy when I'm unhappy with what I see in the mirror.

Content in my state of shrivel.
And I will literally shrivel to pieces,
Without you kept quiet.

You need a muzzle for that,
I have my own trap permanently yelling at me inside my head.

Barbarian

The beast sunk his teeth,
Tore her apart.

Black heartless soul,
Left her homeless, and alone.

Cursing children, disregarder of love.

A soul without light,
Sucking the life, and smiles from all.

And you will never be forgotten for that flash back in our heads,
Forgiveness was given to you much too easily.

Under your coffin you will burn,
And I guarantee you aren't going to heaven.

Enjoy your empty funeral.

Periphery

I never made anything
Of the debris you let collect
In a deserted apartment.

One that was once shared and streamed a live dream...

Company entered to join us at a table
Witnessing our flawless love.

Until the day we let out the dove
To rescue a piece of existence
After our wretched flood.

Her wings never flew back home.

Nature Toned Soul

Green and drifting,
Your branches reached and rotted.

Sifting, drifting
Your cloud expanding and filling.

Swaying arms to swim,
Your aspiration is the sun.

Swimming in mid daylight,
You found the rays that guide you.

Climbing, falling no more parachutes,
Land among the branch you evolved from.

The wind spiralled into dust.
But here your oasis has been found.

Forbidden

Offered my heart
Spilt open and caged.

But you shut down,
Your effort unengaged.

Losing every chance
To reach out of your range.
To grasp hold of potential magic..

But your wariness holds you down,
I tried to break your chains.

You are enslaved,
In love with demons.

They will pick a part your soul,
And when you wake up..

I'll be gone.