Modern World

The one who rests upon her seat,
Plays without aim and seeks defeat.

Head in the clouds reflective and sincere,
Wasted time and unproductive years.

Turning black and and cracked and gone,
But that soul never stops searching for the sun.

Bright and white and dripping into blue,
The sky that sweats precipitation, and hue.

But in the field of flowers, rest assured
One will speak
One will seek
The soul will be found.

Rescued from a maze, consumed.
Escorted the way out, the end of the halt.

The beginning of life...
Breathe now, darling.

Reality is her enemy
Create dreams and colours
Instead.

Space

Im so tired,
So tired of this wall

Im so tired
So tired I can't see at all

Broken, chipping
Dreams to seep

Ash remains from fire,
Flames arise in hell

Who wants to be, anyone but me?
Fuck this mind that can't leave behind
An empty void, black and bleeding
Black and bleeding, a fall that is deceiving..

Fight the breath you've choked on
Swallow salt in ocean
When blind, unkind
You know that all these hearts will die.

Patience you say to me, your friend
No time for that when time is an enemy
That beats us all, to rage and call
To age and dust back our living
Through the potent cycle, turn remains of earth
We're done.

Innocence is declining, hollow world defining
All dreadful things, emerge and breeze unfulfilling.

Not in the head- drowned in distilling contamination
Condemns my unpolished soul, punished impulse strangling
A hope uprooted and destructed

Save your voice, kill the sun
Burning, brightness is the gun

Humanity slipping,
Civilization is awakening foreign, evil.

I need a galaxy, opening.
Take me, whole.
I will pulse through your radiation of light.

A beg screams, "Turn me into constellations." 

Ingest

I don't need you,
when I have the birds to wake me each morning.

I shut out your voices,
and imagine being invisible.

The same repetitive tune does this no good.

We have built a way to fly,
and nature is too often forgotten

just listen, it speaks
Like the voice heard in dreams.

We don't have to wake up,
which is the better world?

The one in your head,
the one you live through.

It's waiting for your attention.

The Attempt Left Unattended

In the middle of the story,
It is frozen.

Words that are only completed in a state of mind.

Erased from memory once processed.

Reading it seems unfamiliar, and unheard of from the mind it came from.

Around The Block

The world started to feel small.

As if it were possible to walk one length to the other end in only minutes...

Desire started to drain, passion lost.

No sense of love just lack of interest, inspiration, emotions.

A staple to punch through all the loose, lost pieces of papers..

Pages stained, must be stacked together.

Because she is walking but her eyes are stuck on the ground.

The sky waits for her to glare back up again.

Impaired Waking Life

Reality's company
Is such a bore.

The disability to believe in ability.

You are all created from my imagination,
Objects, obstacles.

What is memory?

Creation.

It's simple. It's fake.

Life lives, falls and at last comes the break.
I will keep my window open,
The breeze feels better, indoors.

Lest We Be Considerate

The Earth retired
in the middle of it's life.

Mountains moved us
At the climax we faught to climb.

Limb after limping limp, we galloped.
Not one breath wasted,
Not one kiss left... Untasted.

The rivers reflecting the brightest blue it's ever shone.
Giving it everything,
in a last day of life, being a last moment of all.

Without a tear left for the world to shed,
we turn to ash...

And there is no one else to blame.
Destruction = mortality.

Arbitrary

Bubbles float in multi colour
Reflection of the sun

Oxygen and full of love
The wait of the world to be
One.

To a far away land,
Utopian breeze and innocence.

Sweet and tempestuous
Breathing down my neck

Goosebumps light up my skin

Scalene and silk
Fornicated souls

Spiral in ribbon, purple and love ridden.

Your grip just carries me...

Torrent

Fishing board
Tossed in the sea

You ran through a window
A thought to rescue me

Broke your own soul
Took your own life

Broke your loves hearts
In their tears they fight

Holding on, searching up high
There was no time to say goodbye

A waste lost in regret
A world ending in sin

There are never any warning signs
Unless we just ignored them all..

Mindful Rester

Stooped on her doorstep,
Glaring at the lamp post that swings.
Sways.

The current of the wind
Turning the pages of a novel.
Each one touched and wrinkled.

Picnic's on mountain tops
In green emerald symphony...

You dream in your head disabled of sleep.
Restore and wake, or destruct and yawn.

Lucid and keeping track of time.
Too slowly in the darkness - it goes by.

Indecisive Ringlets

Pulling on my thread,
Thrusting the door closed.

I don't know what motion to keep constant.
I don't know what words are not wasted.

I can't wait on you forever, but I don't want to walk away.
I can't wait on you forever, but your choice is made not to stay.

Cutting off the thread.
Locking the damaged door.

Walk in or walk out,
I will no longer revolve.

I will no longer stand.
Patience bleeds like pulsing arteries.
You have cut out too much, in your own open surgery.

The rain is falling for you.
In it's million different patterns, for you.

Welcome the overcast.

The End of Trying

Of what I'm made
from where
have I came
of what
have I become..

I don't know
who that is in the mirror
silent screaming
nobody hears her.

How to become something
how to pick up pieces
I've shattered way out of distance

you won't find me anywhere now
life is too hard to live
I have nothing left to give

do not resusitate
hollow lungs,
suffocate.

Desert Flower

Sealed my lips
With your kiss

Tapped my heart
Vaccinated bliss

Cosmetic smiles, exchange.
We sting effortlessly
In close range.

A battle against two souls,
Too afraid to capture what they desire.

The same thing collapsed under a porcelain cup.

Drive, goodbyes, separate ways.
Feelings run - in hideaways.  

Home Bound

The drapes being dragged open
Sunlight, come in.

Lost the verge of madness,
In myself I wasted sin.

Skin to golden ray,
Smile Ive stumbled a way

Back to Earth you fall
Out of dark again,

Goodbye stars, my friend.

Life awaits, again.

Come Back

Away.
Your force has caused
a loss of my presence

a loss of the spark
emerging

you have let fear
rule your chance at love

away..
Silence creating pain

these walls are growing closer,
stronger.
I can't bear to look at them anymore.

Morning Blues

Blue
To put the memories in the box.

Blue and white wispy swirls held against the rays.

No matter where you end up lost,
The sky will always look the same.

Unfamiliar place, filled with the same familiar sky.

Lightening bolt snaps vital life,
Shivering thunder to move the ground beneath this shelter.

But I have slept through it all,
Now, I hear nothing but the rain..

The Incessant Reject

Consistently let down.
Shaken up, unwanted,

Build me a rocket,
Fly me away.

Im exhausted and humiliated of this cruel place.

Toyed and tied, entirely undone.

Blind to purpose anywhere.

No heartbeat found. 

Depersonalization

Spine detached from body,
Contrast bleeds, gleaming violet.

Artery pulsing,
Quiet thunder.

Xray technology
To find the crack.

A stitch to repair,
Cataclysm to mend.

Living, burning intoxication.
Fortifying an absent heart.
An exterminated, deceased mind.

Hour Glass Life

Over there, you see.
The reflection in the mirror.
Only glass, looking back.

What is on the other side,
Of the breath I hear you breathe.

When they shut the door, I broke.

When we drove away, paralyzed.

The scratched disk skips and plays on repeat.

Flash, spark, rewind.

The white sinks in the carpet now, no substance left.
Just dry.

Star Wanderer

Extra terrestrial
I am star seeds planted gold.

The explanation for why this doesn't feel
Like it is home.

Memories caught on video tape, we laugh, replay and love.

Detached and alienated to understanding how we're all living.
Remaining here with overbearing fatigue and insanity.

Lost in finding the nebula from which I came from.

Too exhausted to create an effort to succeed.
Anything tormented and lonely.

Where to find the last missile.
Light it up,
Ascending to sky, painted clouds and furbished lands.

Gravity is the death of me.

Upside Down

When the sky is overcast,
It whispers to the world.

Soul inflicted pain, must mask the sunlight.

But in the wake of consciousness
Notice, I am the only one peering through the clouds.
Trying to find some starlight.

The moon to point out every night.

And you dont even do a double take at what is above.

I want to belong up there.

Locked Without A Key

What is the point?

"There isn't one."
To living or breathe.
To sleeping or waking.

There is no friendship, there is no love.

it's loneliness that starts and ends your life.
This is it.
Bitter and cynicism.

You put in effort, you even just try, youll be left hurt and disappointed.

Choose to give up, because if you don't, you will never feel okay.

Cobain

On his death day,
His music gets played.

The world should have you back,
Your soul, your words.

In bloom, you bloomed.
This day is for you.

Heartache

I'm only imagining,

you feel the same.

So really, I'm the one to blame.

Sailor

Filled with hate
She can't escape

Cringing with every breath life takes.

Buried and searching
For purpose and point.

I'd rather sit and gaze at stars and moonlight.
Fly me out silently.
My mind is already tortured.
Gently.

Come down and sift me to the space where I'm a piece.
In a puzzle, no longer missing, ridding of poisonous disease.

In a break no longer coming, the wind will bend trees.
And twist there roots from they're belonging.
No more crying on scraped, red knees.

Drowning Diamonds

The diamond that sunk to the bottom
Of the sea.

Getting further out of reach,
Deeper, unseen.

But the light still reflects like crystal exploding sunlight.

And the world will light again,
As the surface holds it's beauty.