Choke

Worthlessness chokes it's hands around my throat.
And I'm gasping for air that is out of my reach.

Tears exploding, face becoming damp.
Hyperventilating the pain stabbing at my heart.

Slaughtering the feelings I can't explain.

Excruciating.
And you keep turning away from me.
Assuming the worst of me,
Don't ask what's wrong.
Just keep throwing your weapons at me.

And I continue to drown.
Invisible.

Falling and waiting to fly.
But I never hit the bottom.
I'm waiting to break.

Leave this world.
This world doesn't want me.

Pain, hurt, searing within me.
I battle this fight everyday,
And I fail, and I bleed.

My screams cannot be heard.
Inside I suffocate.

Hanging on by a thread. And I only want to let go.
Land upon a different star.
This one is dying,
This one is burning.

I want to learn to shine.
I want to feel light.

I want to be okay.
And I don't know how much longer I'm willing to wait..