Hero

Empty is an understatement.

Hurt, loss, abandonment.

It's not worth it.

It's just not.

I'd rather be that person

Who makes themselves their own hero.

Because everyone else who comes, will eventually leave.

And everyone who comes and promises not to hurt you,

will hurt you the most.

So yes,

If it takes shutting everyone out.

Giving up hope,

Never becoming anything to anyone,

and never letting anyone become anything to you ever again.

If it takes lying to yourself and being lonely.

If it takes away feeling and leaves you nothing.

It's worth it.

I'd rather have that than feel this.

Than feel worthless.

It's not the fact that

you walked out on me,

It's the fact that I walked out on myself,

Because of you.

I can't accept that.

I only promise to never do this again.

I need myself more than I will ever need anyone else.

Anyone else.

So yes,

Be alone,

Hurt, cry, be numb.

Choose that.

I'd rather keep my secrets,

than bleed them out to a person

until I have none left for myself.

I need to know that I have parts of myself.

Left somewhere inside.

To give that all away,

Leaves a hole,

and after that hole grows a brick wall.

You said it was fine.

You said that castles were fine.

That you would be okay with it.

And then you left,

you never tried,

you never loved

You only lied.

So if it takes saying goodbye to everything ive ever felt.

I will do it.

to save myself.

To save.

Anything and everything I have left now.