eyes wide open

I love you,

I lied.

Im just afraid of it

of love,

and of feeling.

opening.

thats the greatest fear,

and hoping and wishing and praying

that you will not regret it.

Hoping they stand by your side forever.

Hoping you receive happily ever after,

but im not sure that exists in this life

and this life is called reality.

Confusion often finds me

in the subject or thought of you.

I should only be keen to trying to figure you out,

understand the confusion

instead of wanting to leave it,

ignore it,

push it

away.

Im apologizing more often than you.

That says where im standing

I know im only making things more difficult.

but now I realize.

Im sorry

I am.

And I need you in my life,

I do.

As much as I refuse to open up,

I want to, more than ever.

I am not going anywhere,

I am not going anywhere.

I will stand and wait,

sit and wait

love

and wait.

If thats what you are,

You are all I need

And the answer would be simple,

that you are worth the wait.

Worth the fall,

worth it all.