Amnesia

It felt like shards of glass,
penetrating through my skin,
through my heart.

It felt like I was going...
..to dissapear.
All the while I thought I was fading,
I am still here.

Amnesia attacked some part of my brain,
the one that is gone, the one that made me lose,
Lose my insanity.

I try to flash back, but there is nothing I can feel,
I try to let out, but there are no words to come out.

I never let it out.
And now it is gone.

I never let it escape.
And now it's buried too deep,
I can't find it.

Locked away,
chipping away.
Fading permanently.

Maybe there is a reason
for why it felt surreal.
For why I cant remember it the way that I felt it.

I was in agony,
Screaming as if I were set on fire.

No one took out the fire.
No one saw it burning.
And so I have turned to ash,
and blown away.

Memory no longer serves,
once its gone.
You have to make new ones,
new memories.

I lay here
In the dying sun.
I lay here in this depleting world,
And I wonder, what is next to dissapear?

What I thought I felt was so real, never was.
Maybe life isn't as real as we want the reality of it to be.

If life is gone, you'll never know.
Unless some part of you lives on,
The part that's left you
with this lingering song...