Mental Distress

I started falling,
When I thought
that I just caught myself.
I just found a crack
when I thought,
I had fixed myself.
Spiraling inside my head,
Im trying to talk
but still, nothing's been said..
and Im trying to discover
Whats within
I'm trying
Not to ignore it
I'm trying to find the answers
buried through layers in my brain..
Why did i put up all of these walls
when all they've made me, is insane?
I dont know what I want
when I thought..I finally knew it all
Turns out,
I'm still falling.
Turns out
I'm still healing.
Turns out
the past will never fully go away.
Walls just trap you in
and then your the only one
that can't be let out,
Just after you blocked out everyone else
Now there is no one.
I only know
how to be alone.
I only know how to
put myself in the dark.

Where is the exit sign?


I cant get through
these walls ive built,
this door i've locked,
this life
I have created
for myself.
Don't tell me to "spill"
because I will only refuse.
Why should I give you my broken sentences?
When there is nothing
you can do.