Puzzle

Trying to absorb
all of this world,
all of this life,
all of me.

Trying to find
all of the pieces,
all of the memories,
all of myself.

Trying to know
what I want to do,
where I want to go,
who I am.

Trying to love
Trying to let love,
Trying to be.

Trying to understand
trying to learn,
trying to take it all in.

take in the world outside of me,
take in the world within me.

Take in every aspect, detail in picture.
Or just inside my mind.
I close my eyes and imagine what there is,
and what else there could be.

Why is it that somethings belong
and others dont?

Trying to put the puzzle together.
The puzzle no one has ever solved.

You cant do it on your own.
You can't complete something
the entire world is apart of
when they are all in complete.

Things dont work out,
because there is always something missing,
something stolen, or something that just isn't there.

You cant make it be,
it's just the way it is.

You can change,
but still, you stay who you are.

The cycle of coming and going never ends,
and still everything that is in between
has been yet to be stitched together.

Stuck

Everyone's lives are moving,
everyone is going places.
But I'm here standing still.
Observing the world around me.
Just watching from afar..
and I wonder when the clock will tick
and it will be my turn to move.
I wonder, when the time will pass
and this frozen period is over.

I really wish to flutter away,
I really wish to dig deeper.

I really wish to know answers.

How did they get there?
How am I still here?

When does the time come,
When is the choice made

when is the spell broken?
when do we really learn to live again..

Today

Went in cirlces
millions of time,
went up and down,
been left behind.

Cried until
no tears were left to fall,
now im smiling shamelessly,
even when there is no reason at all.

Clarity found me,
while I suffered in silence.
Confusion left me,
While I learned
without guidance.

And here I am,
I wonder.
And here I am,
taking it all in.

I love every moment,
every detail that is present.

There's nowhere but up,
once you have fallen down.

No way but out,
once you've been trapped in.

Nothing to feel but content
once you decide that everything is okay.

I wished all the pain away,
and look at where I am
Today.

Just Breathe

Breathe
and find.
Do not ignore,
See, and look.
Don't glance away.
Walk and run,
Don't sit and wait.
Ask, and answer.
Only you know,
the answers to the questions,
which you ask within your soul.

People will be there for you,
They will guide you,
But you have to be the one
to swim,
You have to be the one,
To fly.

Only you.

Life, a golden ticket...
We're surrounded by stars,
we're living in colour,
so don't make it black and white.
Dont make it.
Just live it.

Breathe, and find.
Look and see.
fall and fly,
live
until
you die.


~~~~absorb all of this life,
everything alive,
see it,
watch it,
don't
try and escape.

accept, and you'll be free.

Loss

Its your loss
you never loved me back
Its your loss
you never cared
Its your loss
you didnt want to be
with someone
who would have
given there life for you,
Loved you until death
I would have been there forever
Constantly by your side
I wanted you
More than anything in the world
And you crushed my heart
You broke my soul
You killed everything inside of me
Until there was nothing at all
I just sank
Submerged
And was unwilling to swim
Unwilling to care
About what happened to me
Because you didnt.
My heart broke
and no one cared to fix it, fix me,
Im scared to try
Im scared to let people in
Im scared to care
Im scared to be loved

And to love again...

Mental Distress

I started falling,
When I thought
that I just caught myself.
I just found a crack
when I thought,
I had fixed myself.
Spiraling inside my head,
Im trying to talk
but still, nothing's been said..
and Im trying to discover
Whats within
I'm trying
Not to ignore it
I'm trying to find the answers
buried through layers in my brain..
Why did i put up all of these walls
when all they've made me, is insane?
I dont know what I want
when I thought..I finally knew it all
Turns out,
I'm still falling.
Turns out
I'm still healing.
Turns out
the past will never fully go away.
Walls just trap you in
and then your the only one
that can't be let out,
Just after you blocked out everyone else
Now there is no one.
I only know
how to be alone.
I only know how to
put myself in the dark.

Where is the exit sign?


I cant get through
these walls ive built,
this door i've locked,
this life
I have created
for myself.
Don't tell me to "spill"
because I will only refuse.
Why should I give you my broken sentences?
When there is nothing
you can do.