The Best Day I've Lived

I've never been able
To explain anything I feel.

And now it's all in front of me.
I see what I feel.

And everything around me is all I have ever felt, pictured, dreamt or imagined.

Each beat, sounds like what I thought love sounds like.

And each landscape is what I thought love looks like.

The light inside of me, is exploding, out.
And I can no longer put away in a drawer what I've held back my entire life.

It is not a word, or a song.

But a soul with every crease in the Rockies, every emotional thought or feeling

Beating as rapid as heart, pulsing.

And I can't pretend anymore.
I know things I can't explain.
I feel things I cannot share.

I am the world, and the world is me.

And the earth is not the same without you, without me.

You can't reach the last root that digs or the highest star that dives across the universe.

You can only let it grow, let it burn, let it fly, watch, breathe, die...

The Patient

And I'm breathing
But the air is still.

And everyone around me
Looks painted from my mind.

Just voices in my head,
Just whispering in my sleep.

Alive in my dreams,
I hide beneath the sky
That watches me.

Spin, within the world
That holds me.

Because I haven't found
A place.

Just places.

Because I haven't found a person.
Just people.

And we're all crossing the same street,
And we're all passing, and hurting
Underneath.

But they're just voices in my head,
I must collapse inside, instead.

Synesthesia

I know who I am,
But on pages I can never remember.

My inner voice sounds different
When it's read.

The constellations look different
When they're spread.

And I don't need to know your name
To feel the things you feel.

I fall in tune with your energies
And realize it is not mine I am feeling

You are not alone,
You don't even know I know.

But I'm always dipped somewhere
Behind the horizon, feeling each light
As if it were my own.

Your rain is a beautiful storm,
You must allow to fall.

Dynamite

Everything is tugging
And I can't hang the world upside down

The way it does me.

I can't stop hurting
The way the ache in my heart
Breathes pain through me

And I try to contain the anger
But it goes off into thin air

Unnecessary, unconscious rage.

I can't swallow it.
Becoming professional at scaring
Every one away.

Convinced that I need nothing
I will end up with no one.

One cell, I belong.

Notepad

Not a place to be around
Voices In surround sound
Throw me away sedate me
Don't forget to lock the door

Isolated, lost and gated
Keep me in where civilization
Is kept out

Cause the solitude is what keeps me sane
Everyone else in my Head is a game

The place to escape
Don't let the silence break

Just help me out of here

Sea Level

I could hardly feel the cold in my bones.

Because the sky was an infinite aquarium of shooting stars.

Too beautiful to think of one devastating thing.

I've never felt so significantly small
Or surrounded.

I've never felt so at peace with the ground.

The sky is the home my heart longs for
And the mountains contained us together.

I'm just a soul when this body evaporates.

The Magic of Solitude

Because its finding the piece
That helps you find all the others.

Because its the adventures
That help you find your treasure.

It's the hurt that helps you heal.

And the questions which make you learn.

It's boarding a plane.

It's leaving you're town.
It's experiencing heartbreak.

And falling in love.
Not with just a soul.
But with nature.

I can hear and feel everything inside.
You're not just passer by's,
But atoms that float by

And I know who you all are
Were all breathing
On the same string.

Lust Alive

My arms reach
But the gap is too big.

Your distance and mountains
To keep us apart

Barriers and guards surround my heart

There isn't a door
And I can't try to build one.

You'll have to break in,
Because I want the magic that's
Lingered between us.

But I sit among another planet
And if I were given another rejection

I would leave the galaxy
Completely.

The pull

I need you
So that I know my heart beats.

I need you
So that I know you're mine.

The distance is breaking
What I don't want to feel

Someone always has to come along
Rob me of my numb closed heart
And make me feel again

I'd rather not breathe
Then feel the desperation
For another

Ordinary but my heart says more than that,
Tired of fighting head and heart

I just want to rest

West

I stood in awe
At the cliffs
That stand above me.

Finally seized in the territory
Of a place I only thought was a dream

And when the snow falls,
I smile.

I have never believed
In anything so beautiful.